AN HONEST ACCEPTANCE...AND THE TRUTH BEHIND.........

Yes…I’m a girl….Yes I’m complicated…Yes I’m difficult to deal with…
I do things most of you feel are useless…I do things that you never feel are logical…I do things which are highly inappropriate to go with that particulAr situation…I do things which are childish…I do things that hardy makes sense for an average adult…
I read Cecilia and cry with Holly knowing she never exists.….I watch Enchanted and dream about fairytales knowing they happen only in flicks…I tune with Avril, and believe that I play better than her knowing that I hardly can hold the guitar….I hum with Taylor and believe in Love Stories knowing that those are just plain luck….
I believe that people around me will think of me the way I do for them although I see the truth that they don’t.…..I believe there cannot be anyone who thinks bad of anyone although I know it is simply the other way around.….I believe nobody on earth should go through pain although I know everybody has to deal with lot of those…
I drink my iceberg and break the glass and end up paying for it….I eat chocolates and keep the wrapper as it makes me sad to throw it away…..I eat calories and next 2 hours keep promising to myself that, I will never repeat it…..I love the chocolates that come inside the gift wrappers than the ones that I buy…
I love it when you buy flowers for me, not when you plan a five course dinner for me…I love it when you feed me knowing that is ridiculous of me….I go shopping and end up buying cookies instead of dinner….I forget about the boiling milk on the stove when I sit in front of the television….
I get angry and shout at the top of my voice not caring for your peace of mind…I get irritated and start eating chocolates foRgetting about diet…I get wild and break the glasses not realizing I will miss them once they are gone….I get hyper and try boxing you not accepting that I can never defeat you…I feel sad and cry on your shoulder not bothering you have something important to attend….I land in problem and keep hoping that you will come and save me regardless of the depth of it…..I don’t sleep thinking you will call up and sing a song for me…
I do things which makes you feel I’m worthless and stupid…..
But then, I run to you when you are in trouble…I never sleep when you cant sleep making your presentations…I don’t care about my nails and feed you when you are not well…. I don’t eat when you don’t get time to eat…. I cry when you feel helpless…. I stay awake when you have nightmares…. I try making dinner for you, when it is your special day…
I make you sleep on my lap when you look sad….I buy gifts for you with my pocket money….I travel to unknown places to get a glimpse of you….I go pray everyday for your safety….I love you despite of knowing that you don’t any more…I wait for the happy time to come…I wait for my dreams to be true….

I do things that don’t hold any importance in a practical life…I do things which make others believe I’m foolish and unreal…I do things which you don’t think anyone should think…I do things that make you feel I’m immature to the core….
But then, I have a heart that never see bad…I have a heart that cries for the smallest pain in anyone…I have a mind that never lets others fall in trouble…I have a mind that never thinks bad of others….

Yes, I’m a girl….With lots negatives…Less positives….But I’m pure at heart…I’m true at heart….I have a fresh mind…I have a true mind…..Yes, I’m a girl….And I’m proud of it…

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO YOU............

Everybody talks about love these days....And why not.....Valentine's Month is running and so does the air get fragrant with LOVE..........And everyone, indifferent of their age are humming to the tune of love...Everybody is happy.....Everybody is content....and....Everybody is trying their best to make up for all the time they ignored the small happiness of their partner....And the success of all the effort comes alive, with the heartfelt smile on the lips of the person for whom all the efforts were planned.....


Well….there was a time, when this days meant so much for me….Only reason being I took the pleasure of making some stupid, idiotic but honest attempts to make my LOVE happy….Well, the truth is I might have really not known the real meaning of what that particular word meant….But all I could understand that I should do my best to make an effort to make up for all the time I made the other person cry, get angry and curse himself for choosing to be with me….


In making those attempts what I didn’t realize is that love is not about celebrating just a day of happiness and glossy feelings, but is about making small happiness possible each and every day…..What I didn’t realize is that love is all about making the other person feel that he has someone on whom he can trust even during his worst time….What I didn’t realize is love is all about handling things in a way to make them just incidents of life, not accidents….And by the time the realization of these simple facts started blooming in me, perhaps it was too late…..


Today when everybody is celebrating love, and I’m busy analyzing my way of understanding the same, then and now, I find myself at faults for most of the things…..I find myself to be an arrogant little brat, who just made others life impossible and who just knew nothing about doing anything for others…That might not probably be my fault entirely, as I was not even considered given a chance to change myself any day, but the story ends at the point when things go wrong, without a conclusion….And that remains a fact for always….


Today, I’m writing this to let all the people who ever loved me and bore all my arrogance till their last level of limit, that I was wrong in many ways….I was wrong in every way might be…But there is a fact you all should know, and that will always remain so…And that’s that, I still feel for you the way I always did..I still feel you are the best thing that ever could happen to me…… And I’m grateful to all the sources that it happened….


On this day of love, just wish wherever you are, just stay happy….Thanks for all the memories you gave me….Thanks for all the time you shared with me….And thanks for making me feel like a Princess…..And most importantly thanks for making me strong and a fighter for life....Wish, life brings you all the goodness and ushers you with the best in everything....Wish love finds you the best way possible, and most importantly stay beloved always.....


Happy Valentine's Day to you all..................


P.S. This is my last V Day note this season......Wish love find you all the lovely people there.....and stays with you for life long........

LOVE...AND A FLOATING THOUGHT.....

Love…the feeling that takes anyone to a different heights of emotion…the feeling that makes one see the world with different eyes…Love…the feeling that makes one stand tall in the midst of any calamity…the feeling that makes one stable in the midst of chaos….The feeling so pure….so true….so overwhelming….so exhilarating….and most importantly so encouraging….
Love doesn’t demand commitment, it teaches you that….Love doesn’t demand loyalty; it teaches you that….Love doesn’t demand anything…but it teaches you everything….Love makes you strong, love makes you inspired, love makes you overcome the anxieties of life….
People demand, love is situational; I say it is beyond any situations…if you cannot retain your love for someone just because you believe the situation is not right, you never loved that person…when you love, you love….you do not need to see what is stored next….And if your love change cuz you feel that, that is a demand of the circumstances, you are wrong…instead the truth is you never loved that person, rather, you thought you loved him/her. Cuz the truth is love never changes, love never dies and most importantly love never teaches you to betray the faith of the other person…
Loving someone is one of the most difficult experiences one could ever have…At times your hearts match, but minds do not….and you lead to have some of the silliest arguments in life….At other times you are led to have fictions over facts, so transparent and beyond honesty….At some other times you are so very compatible with each other that you get tired of not having any dissimilarity…..But the truth is, when you love, you love without really even getting bothered to criticize that person, and true love lies in that….
Everyone has their own limitations…each of us is born and brought up in a background and environment that is completely unique to others….And so does the mindsets that we develop…But despite of all these factors if you can love someone the way he or she is, that is love…And nothing can change that feeling…no matter what….No matter, even if you know that he or she is miles away from being the perfect person on earth…even if you know that he or she has every fault you can ever imagine…No matter even if that person gives you hell of a time at times…even if that person makes you feel like crusading him/her at times….or even if that person runs your patience dry on most of the occasions….At the end of the show, these facts don’t really matter…what matters is that you love him/her and that is beyond these mundane incidents and accidents of life.
If you promised someone to love him/her today, make sure that you do for your lifetime…Cuz, when you promise, you make a commitment for lifetime, and you never know, the other person might take that promise as his or her EVERYTHING….
So, this Valentine’s day, let’s make a wish….Lets wish, everyone on this earth find their soul mate to share their life with….Lets wish, no matter what, in every situation, LOVE WINS…Lets wish, no matter what nobody abandons nobody…Let’s wish, no matter what everybody keeps their promises made to the other person….Let’s wish, no matter what love doesn’t turn out to be a victim of circumstances….And most importantly, lets wish, love brings all the positive vibes to everyone’s life….and bless everyone to see the beauty it blends to everything in life….