LOSIN URSELF CAN BE WORTHWHIL AT TYMES...........

It s been quite sumtyme tat I had last sat by d window n was lost jus in2 myself…n 2day wen m doin d same n enjoyin d face of dis rain drenched beautiful city wid a steamin mug of coffee in had I jus realized I had not been in my elements 4 long….in fact I had jus completely 4gotten 2 live my life…..n d outcome was I had really started overlookin d beauty of d world around me…..n it was jus my mental shell tat I had thought 2 b my world….n s usual dis situation played its own game on me…..blockin my heart n mind 2 sum illusionary world…..instead of facin d beautifu reaity I had been livin in sum imaginary pain n heartache….how foolish of me…..n all I wanna do now s 2 ask myself a simple question….was I actin stupid or was I letting myself get victimized by d stupidity around me….n does it make me regret?????

N wen I look 4 an ans I know I was actin stupid 2 others’ eye….n I was letting myself befooled by d situation….but about regrettin….. I certainly don……in my own terms n conditions I had chosen 2 be a victim of d situation n m glad I did….or else I had no way 2 experience an amazingly new n fresh journey tat m on board now…..n tat makes me realize at tymes it s good 2 lose elements n act jus mad n nuts…cuz dis s 1 way how u get a chance 2 enjoy thins in a different perspective…..yeah…at tymes u should let thins take its course….or rather let ‘em flow……tat might b a lil risky at tymes but d essence lies in tat….riskin d obvious makes it a thrillin experience…..n if it has a positive outcome it s amazin n if it s a negative 1, u ll end up knowin a new facet of life…which s all d more exhilaratin….so no loss in any case….

They say wen u play a game play it till d end….never back up n rest ll b jus decided….same way wen u take a decision however foolish it might look or sound 2 others don let ur mind drift away 4m it….cuz at tat point of tyme it looked d best tat u could decide….so wher s d chance 2 regret….in fact if it were not taken it might make u feel guilty all through….so stay guiltfree n answerable 2 ur own conscience….n d rest ll flow accordingly…there s so many chances tat u might end up lovin n respevtin urself all d way more jus cuz of few of those innocent foolish decisions….n d truth s d world s not so bad n tough tat even if some of ur decisions go wron it ll ve no place 4 ur survival….it ll ve a unique room4 u 2 even if end up in a big blunder….so y not takin risk n lose urself 2 wat ur heart says…..

As I’m lookin out through my window sippin my coffee I decide it s not tat bad I’ve done by losin my element or losin d chance 4 a few months 2 enjoy d beauty of my life or by livin in an imaginary pain…..at least I experienced sumthin diff 4m d predictable n obvious monotonous life…..n d best part it has made me stronger than ever n ve made me realize how thrillin d journey of life can b jus if u make a lil change in ur regular plan…………..

Life ll take its course…..always… no matter if u enjoy it or jus waste it by letting urself stuck…..n wen u look back n realize u shouldn’t ve who nos how much life u ll b left wid….so no matter wat lets jus c d beauty of dis amazing life n makes it all d more exorbitant by jus seein it 4m al d way possible…..or should I by messin it up wildly…..perhaps tat s 2 wild 2 digest…so let d wildness n mess up factor b exclusively 4 me….

LIFE S A GAME...JUS PLAY UR BEST...

D other day was d last Saturday of d month…hence started early 4m office…had a plan 2 catch up wid sum good food n a chilled coffee…n wid tat in mind jus entred in a mall…by d tyme I came out wid my Tropical Iceberg n a huge burger in hand d ground floor of d mall was packed up wid a hug crowd…music was played on n I could make out ther was sumthin interestin goin on…cuz everybody seemed very happy bein a part of d crowd…realizin tat I had nothing much 2 do back at home n I had quite bit of leisure tyme in hand I decided2 join in d fun…so I jus climed up d escalators n got myself fixed in a place on d 1st floor 4m wher I could c d whole episode in a proper way…tats wen I realized ther was a dance competition goin on n few groups wer standin in small groups in various corners of d mall…in different attires n I could easily make out it was a hip hop dance competition…all d guys n gals were teenagers n their excitement level was at d top…they looked bit tensed, bit worried n bit scared…but tat couldn’t make their excitement level come down…

Wat amused me d most s d enthusiasm tat those small kids had in ‘em…there was no doubt tat only 1 group s gonna b awarded d winners’ crown n they knew it quite 2 well…but tat was d last thin in their mind at tat tyme…their spirits were high n all they were doin s concentratin on givin their best performance on d stage…tat made me realize 1 thin sumbody said sumwher…’’if fate means u 2 lose give it a good fight anyway’’…n yup tat s 1 biggest truth tat we keep 4gettin a lot of tymes…
Winnin n losin s always a part of d game…doesn’t matter whether tat s a game of life…game on a ground or agameon d stage…but does it really stop d real players 4m givin d best they can…surely not…a real player s jus unaware of d consequences of d game…he jus plays his best game…n tats how he enjoys d game d best way possible…n finally he wins…y…cuz he gave his best shot…isn’t it a circle…u play best n u b d best…doesn’t matter whether u tried 2 prove tat u r best or not…u get proved cuz u tried givin d best of u…how amazing…

D game of life s also d same…y to bother wat it has in store 4 u…jus live it d best way possibleor rather play in d best way u no…n finally u DO get in there wher u always wanted 2 b…no doubt it s not s easy s spoken…but 1 who has lived lyfe tat way can understand how uncomplicated it s 2 let life play its own game while u play ur best shot…n tat lets u enjoy every moment of lyfe in d most mesmerizing way…lyfe itself brins so much thrill n compliments tat u don ve 2 think about havin sum more again…jus enjoyin each n every moment of it widout bein a critic makes everythin so enjoyable…if there s a hard moment jus let it pass by…n it does passes by…cuz finally any gam has it s end…n if there s a bad game it also does get over…I fact bad games take lesser tyme 2 get over…isn’t it…so all we need 2 do s jus ve a bit of patience n let d game take its course…meanwhile we let ourselves in2 it wid all our enthusiasm n energy…of course we ll win at d end…

My coffee was getin over n also d competition…I didn’t wait 4 d result 2 b announced…cuz there was no need 4 me 2 no who d winner was…d way everybody gave his or her best shot was all tat I heartened…I really wished if I could approach every single of ‘em n say a hearty thanks 2 ‘em 4 d amazing act they performed…n above of all 4 remindin me wid 1 of d biggest truth tat whatever game u play JUS GIVE UR BEST SHOT…n also 4 reassurin me about 1 more truth of life…tat WEN U PLAY D BEST U WIN …

A SIMPLE WISH................

The other day experienced a very unique morning after ages….The whole morning it was raining, starting since the dawn….The beautiful drops of rain had created a dramatic environment… And, it made me feel guilty for wasting time in bed and so I ended up sitting by the window very early in the morning….And continued that way till I had no other option left than leaving the view of the beautiful sparkling dewdrops to get going for my work……And although I was engrossed in being dressed up,all the while my mind was drifting back again and again to the amusing sight of the rain….So pure….so true….and so touching…..And I was surprised to recall how happy I was when I was enjoying the rain….

That's when I realize once again that the true and amazing things in life come without a price…And they are not materialistic…..God has created the most mesmerizing things long before we could even think of…..And everything that He has created are matters of purity and are serine….The best part of it is everyone can enjoy the beauty of it..You don't need to be rich to enjoy the rain….You don't have to have the best of anything materialistic to enjoy the beauty of a morning….You don't have to be anyone other than yourself to absorb the beauty of the flowers in the garden….The colors of the rainbow….And the vastness of the mountains…You can enjoy those without thinking of your background…your wealth…your caste….your religion….And that's how God has spread equality among all……

Wish that was same in every case….Wish the world around us were a place where all could feel the goodness of life equally…But that's far beyond imagination…Might be just a wild imagination rather…The endless slams just next to castle-look-alike buildings keep reminding that all the while….The handless beggar standing at the window of a BMW paints the bright color of sheer inequality only….We all know it….We all realize it…And might be we are even desperate to change the whole picture someday…But at the end, we resort in nowhere…Cuz we don't know how to do it…Where to begin it…And that leaves us all helpless but to stick to our good old monotony of letting things happen….

Wish things never started this way…Wish things were as plain and simple as the goodness of nature…Wish everyone was blessed with a chance to enjoy life and its beauty the way he can enjoy the beauty of the rain…The beauty of the foggy mountain around the city….And the sunset in the sea….Wish things in life were so simple…REALLY WISH….

KEEPIN D FAITH ALIVE.........

The last few days have been a wonderful experience for me….What started as a reckless decision to land up in an unknown city without a strong foothold and with a lot of uncertainty has started turning out to be one of the best decisions in my life….And this has made me regain my faith in one truth….That when you have a strong focus and truth in heart with a positive mindset nothing can go wrong for you…In fact things that go wrong owing to situations start falling back on track…That's the beauty of life…...At one moment you feel lost…but the next it only gives you strengths to face it on………And one fine morning you find things falling back on track….exactly as you wished for…No doubt you need to retain your faith on the goodness of life and also should know yourself….Know that there is always a strength lying inside you that can make impossible possible……

Life…..strange how it guides you…It teaches us to be different everyday…Rather to adjust to situations without losing faith……Teaches us to act according to different situations and teaches us to be strong with every passing bolt in the journey…….And end of it we discover ourselves as different persons….With a stronger and much polished attitude towards it………And then we rediscover ourselves…And know that whatever comes on our way we have the strength to face it on….To fight it back…..And to win over…..Great how it is…..

Yet….often we fail to realize ourselves…Fail to see that things are never beyond our hands…Just that we not stretching ourselves enough to reach them….Just that we're not trying to see what is that CLICK factor that can be used to handle the situation faced…Just that we get confused with our SHOULD and SHOULDN’Ts…CAN and CANNOTs….And finally we behead our courage and strengths…So unfair….What we hardly realize is that there is no power to outsmart one’s will…..That is what WILLPOWER all about…


Maybe m generalizing things from my personal experience and putting a simpler conclusion to what some other might say as a complicated truth of life…But isn’t it right that the more we make things complicated the more difficult it turns out to be….And accordingly the more out of hands they slip away….So why don't we just simplify things and put a simpler conclusion…That life is nothing but believing in one’s own dreams….Retaining the faith all along….And facing problems with just no different from that of a normal happening….And most importantly with keeping our ears open to the truest adviser around….OUR HEART………

HAPPYNESSS............IT S MADE ONLY OF LOVE..........

d other day probably 4 s 1st tyme i was happy.......probably 4 d 1st tyme in dis new city i was happy.......in real sense.....n tat made me rebelieve 1 thin.....doesnt matter however hard u try u can b happy in real sense only wen ur heart s content.....u can view happyness 4m quite few angles....but ultimately d real happyness s not brought by money or comfort....or 4 tat matter any other materialistic staffs........a small smile 4m ur loved ones s all wat u need 2 b happy......a smile tat can make u feel ur belongingness 2 him......n tats love.....d strangest feelin god ever created.......

cant define how...but love has d most overpowerin strenght 2 make u feel happy.....u ve fear in mind of anythin...think about d smile on ur loved ones's lips....d fear disappears in d next moment....u r lost in d crowd...think about d arms of ur loved ones's around u.....u get ur way outta d crowd......u r scared of facin life....think about how beautiful ur life would b wid ur loved ones's...u get all d strengths 2 walk on d cuttin edge of lyfe......tats d power of love....n anyone ever fallin in love can undoubtedly say dis wid hands on their heart......


really.....there might b thousand moments in love which u don want....never expect n can leave u really messed up....but if u really can act fair to any problem in life u ll understand...tat love s d only thin tat can make anyone happy....it makes u so strong tat no other feelin in life can leave u messed up.....shattered.....n it gives u food 4 ur thought....2 make em matured.....n cant define y...but it always happen tat a person who can love can win anythin in life....n y not....he gets d biggest unreasoned support in love.....wat else u need other than 2 keep urself go on in d most sophisticated way.......

dis blog s 2 all who r in love....can love....n do love....doesnt matter wat.....it can be their parent tat they love....might b siblings....might b poetries....mght b paintings.....might b music.....it might b anythin tat one loves....but LOVE SHOULD ALWAYS B THERE......if u wanna b happy.....cuz HAPPYNESS S MADE OF ONLY N ONLY LOVE...........

JUS MISSIN IT ALL.............

y does it always happen dis way...tat wen u away 4m ur fav ones only
den do u realize how precious they were......doesnt matter it s jus
somebody...or somethin......

wen it s loneliness we miss d crowd....wen
it s summer we miss d winter.....wen it s sunny we miss d rain......n
wen it s all over we miss everythin.....life s like tat.....miss thins
wen they no more wid us......

jus dis mornin realized how much m missin
my old days.....cant help....gettin up 2 face few unknown faces....2
face dis deadly dry weather.....2 face every possible unexpected n
undesired experience......n tats wat makin me feel how much m missin my
lovely home back.......my small sweet home tat i made back in tat green
city....n yeah.....everythin abt tat sweet place s makin me miss it
even more.....d chillin breeze in d evenins.....d unexpected rain in d
evenins....d unlimited tea n coffees in d roadside huts......d long n
chatty long drives late at nites....d bunch of lovin frenz who used 2
run at middle of d nite jus 2 wipe my tears which were 4 someone they
didnt even know........

life s so strange....didnt realize tat time wat
m leavin back in there...didnt realize how much m gonna starve 4 those
moments....n now m dyin 4 every bit of it.....is it always necessary
tat we lose somethin n den only we realize how precious they
were....cant it happen dis way tat nobody ever has 2 lose
anythin.....cant it be tat simple......life s really strange.....one
moment ve everythin.....n d next jus nothin.....ll dis mystery of iife
ever gonna unwind....guess never....

DESPERATE ATTEMPTS.........

d other nite sleep was arrogant 2 come 2 me........ended up explorin d bed all nite..........makin desperate attempts 2 get some sleep.......it didnt come n tat made be rebelieve somethin......tat wen u desperately need n want somethin it runs away 4m u.....recalled one of my fren sayin...."Donot try holdin d sand in ur fist too tight...it jus slips away tat way"..........how very true.......


these days m losin my mind i believe....ve ended up in a place where facin nothin rather den some strange experiences....never felt so lost n desperate ever....hot dusty days......unexpected twists n turns......no security in any way.....don no how do i get myself back n can b strong 2 survive on.........it s difficult.............

makin attempts 2 feel strong....2 feel better n....2 feel tat m not alone......but tat hardly changes anythin....tat hardly changes my sleepless nights....tat hardly gets me peace ofmind.....n tat hardly makes me feel better anyway......so everytime i make an attempt it ends up in great desperation.....in vain......n tat s leavin me naive......


still waitin 4 d sun 2 give me some shine...............still waitin 4 d days 2 brin me d much needed break...........hope dis wait doesnt turn out 2 b a unendin one.........................

POUR D HEART OUT.......LIFE S SHORT....LETS LOVE......

switch on d tv n everywher it s been flashin continuously since it happened in tat cruel mornin.....wid every bit of flash don no wat other thins come 2 mind....but 4 sure one faith goes stronger n stronger.....life s so unpredicatble n uncertain.....2day we r here chattin....chillin....laughin...n who nos d next moment might b d last in our life.....really.....does life ve any worth n value if we really think on....cant find a perfect ans 2 tat....jus b4 sittin in d aircraft did anybody of d late crowd think tat they gonna start a never returnin journey...wid their death not only did they die....a lotta other dreams....hopes....plannins.....n a lotta expectactions did die 2....of someone's parents'....siblings'....spouses'....kids'....loved ones'......how cruel life s....one moment it makes u lovin it 2 d core....n next moment it makes u struggle 4 makin d next....d next moment it jus brins a full stop 2 everythin....
still we fight.....still we compete.....still we always wanna make it big....n in tat course we make enemies....we make people hate us....we make ourself cruel.....and at d end we don even get 2 take anythin wid us....we jus vanish 4m here....how strange.....d more we think d more complicated it gets....probably tats one reason y we always overlook things in life n let it go rather den bein bothered.....one good way 2 adapt....
wish everybody understood d momentary feature of life...wish everybody could jus 4get all d bad n unwanted moments of life n started everythin fresh...wish love could get higher weightage than hatred....wish everybody could understand tat we might not live 2morrow....so y not embrace d goodness of 2day....y cant we jus 4get all d pain we caused 2 one another n jus run n take one another in arm.....n jus say "m still ther 4 u".....
yeah...we can do tat....we cant change d past....neither we no about 2morrow....but we surely can make 2day count by lovin and bein generous 2 one another.....at least lets learn 1 small truth 4m d tragedy tat happened recently....tat LIFE S TOO SHORT......n tat there s hardly any space 4 hatred...

WAITIN 4 D RAIN..............

Jus d previous nite my frenz called 2 say tat it s been rainin there every evenin………..every1 s amazed 2 feel d soft rain on ‘em….n y not….after a dusty n hot summer rainfall s wat all die 2 ve…..such a pleasant feel 2 ve d raindrops pourin on d face…..n getting wet on it is jus beyond words…..n if frenz r there 2 give u company in sharing d experience wat more can u ask 4………………………..

Even m waitin 4 d rain drops 2 pour here 2……it s hot dusty n sweaty in here……makin d day a real painful experience…..but den it ll change in no tyme m sure…..d beautiful rain ll pour down here 2…..dampnin my hair……dampnin my clothes…..wen raindrops ll pour on my face I ll jus close my eyes…..n ll feel immense joy n peace……cold breeze ll add flavor 2 it…..wen d sky turns black every afternoon I ll jus run 2 my terrace n ll stand there waitin 4 d raindrops 2 pour on……soft drizzles at 1^st….n den d rain ll take its blowin course…………tat ll make me wet n ll make me d happiest person on earth……..i no everythin around ll look so pretty……n I ll not b able 2 take my eyes off…..d wetty trees around….d flowers wid raindrops on it…..d dusky colors around…..d blowin wind across…..n still pourin rain ……wat can be more charmin than such an exotic experience…………….i ll jus keep standin there till tyme permits me……no worries….no sorrow…..no pain….no thoughts at all……..

True….nature s d place which s so true…so secure….so beautiful……so carefree….n so peaceful…wish human bein stayed natural rather than makin d earth so plastic n concrete……at least d worries, pains,cruelty,sorrows n all tat unwanted n shatterin elements of lyfe wouldn’t ve existed here…….…

TYME S JUS PASSING BY................

don no wen d wait s gonna end...........it seems so long n unendin.................thins happenin at its pace n m jus standin in middle of d fast runnin crowd of experiences........................tyme s jus passin on n on............sumday i say 2 myself...."Lets wind it up"............n d next moment hopes come back 2 me n i stand up again........2 face a new wait..............................don no till wen it goes on.........................unendin it really s...................hope sumday i can find out my destiny.........

AN EVENIN IN AN UNKNOWN PLACE.........

mumbai.....................people say CITY OF DREAMS...................is it really......yet 2 experience...................except for shoppin and shoppin n a few official trips never ever thought ll really start up my life here...............

but den thins change........at tymes u run after thins which u think URS n ONLY URS.............m doin d same.....my heart says dis s d city tat can give me my everythin............n i no tats d truth.......n so here i m........widout givin a 2nd thought m here....chasin my own possessions.....which i lost cuz of my silly mistakes.....but den it s k......who doesnt commit mistkes.......i did 2......n 4m d moment i realized m tryin on n on......2 rectify those.....................n i no 1 day ll cum...........wen i ll get back my everythin..................EVERYTHIN.................cuz those r MINE n they can never b others.................

it s a bit hot here...................don ve an ac in my room............miss d comfort tat i hadback in blore....miss my frenz.....miss d CCD n MCDs jus next 2 my house there......but den it s k......here i no there r lot other things tat i die for....tat i TRULY CARE FOR.......n TRULY WANT.......so it s fine........wat if nobody understands me anymore....wat if everybody around me s angry wid me cuz they think i don care...........but i do......I TRULY DO......i LOVE U GUYs.........................i no m listenin none but only 2 my heart....................but den tats d pace in which i store U GUYSTOO na....................................

love n love.........alaways.........

csk....go guys..............

awesome tat CSK stormed into finals.........................love these guys.............