FOR YOU....WITH LOVE.......

You will never know what you meant to me…You will never know what you gave me…You will never believe when I say you all that I could ever want…You will never realize how much my heart longs for you…. You will probably never get to know….But truths are always truths….And so even if you never know this truth will also remain true till the end of the story..

You filled my life like no one ever did…..You filled my heart like no one ever could……..When I lost road you guided me……..When I lost the world you created one 4 me…When I slipped on the paths of life you stood holding my hands…..You laughed with me…..You cried with me….You cried for me….You did everything for me….You gave me a partner 2 laugh with….You gave me a shoulder to cry on…..In short you filled my life with everything one could possibly think for…..

You told me ‘Life is beautiful’ and I could really see the beauty around me….with you….You told me ‘Dreams come true’ and I could always turn my dreams into reality…..You told me ‘I can do wonders’ and I really did wonders in everything I tried…..All you said always came true……Do you know why???? Because you were there to tell me what is right and what was not…….But the biggest truth was you knew me more than I do myself….And that is how you could know what can be the best for me…..

You were my friend, philosopher and guide….You showed me what life could offer….You taught me how to fight back in life…You taught me everything that can made me love life….What more….You helped me walk along the paths of life, by holding my hands….And that had made me feel that the journey of life is so easy and amazing….

You were right there when I was in trouble….Your arms were around me to shield me from any hardness of life….You stood by me when I was alone and devastated….You collected my energy when life had planned to gun me down……..You boosted my morale, you enhanced my mind, you enriched my thoughts….. And when I sobbed you were there to wipe my tears off…..

You gave me the best gift of my life…’LOVE’….You taught me what love is….You taught me how to love….And you taught me how beautiful it can be….And it was indeed more beautiful and charming because the person I fell for was YOU….Your innocent eyes, soft talks, warm smile….Everything about you made me fall deeper and deeper in love with you….But the best part of your love was you made me change….You made me being a better person….You taught me the values of life…Your love made me see the world from the best angle possible…..Where there was no selfishness, no hatred and no condition of giving and taking….


Thanks….For everything….For bringing the good out of me….For making me see life in a better way….For making me see the world as a better place to live in….For making me feel loved….For telling me what I could do…..For teaching me how to love….For each and everything…..You are one of the best chapter of my life book, which I want to read again and again….over and over again….


This is to let you know what you were for me….you are for me….and you will be for me…..Things may change, the world may change, and even you may change….But your presence in my life will always be felt….Your space in my life will always be the same…..You may walk ahead or away from me, but I will always place myself at a distance where I can stretch my hands and reach yours….Because the journey in life gets more and more amazing when you and me together…….And I know God has already built the road of journey and has also decided the destination…..All we have to is reach there…..I know the journey will not be a bed of roses, but we both together can conquer the worst of anything….So I am sure the journey will one of the most thrilling one could ever imagine…..

Cheers to ‘US’……..This is for you....With all my love....

FALLIN IN LOVE WID PAIN..............

It’s been 2 days…..n m in pain….n unlike always dis tyme it s not of my heart n mind…….it s a physical pain….but unlike d pains in heart, dis tyme it s quite bearable….in fact sumhow dis pain s making me feel glad……probably cuz it s actin s an escape root 4 me 4m my complicated thoughts….sumtymes pain has its own god points….it makes u 4get d unwanted complexities of life…it makes u feel other difficulties of life minor….n most importantly it makes u resistant 2 any other miseries of life….n tats wat my pain s doin 2 me now….it s makin me 4get other troubles in lyfe….n 4 a change m likin it….

Well….there was a tyme wen d very thought of pain used 2 scare me….d very thought of sufferin used 2 handicap me…. N adjustin 2 troubled situations was a thin beyond my imagination…….n I considered myself incapable of any of that….in fact I really was….it takes a bit of courage 2 admit but yeah, I was a spoiled kid….spoiled in a way, I was not supposed 2 b….tat made me arrogant, self centered…..headstron, wicked….n most importantly nobody ever tried 2 change d way I was…everybody I had come across till date never tried stopping me 4m bein so, n instead, encouraged, reason bein they always ended up pamperin me….rather than letting me face d hardship of lyfe….n now wen m goin through d most difficult phase of my lyfe, I miss ‘em…sumtymes wish they never did so much 4 me….n most of d tymes I curse ‘em 4 makin me so vulnerable in lyfe….4 makin me so weak in lyfe….so weak tat wen it was my turn 2 face d world alone I was barely able 2 stand n my feet…my legs were shakin n my own weight seemed much heavier than I could really take….d smallest of negative incidents could leave me devastated, d smallest of d thorns left me bruised n d smallest of stones on d path looked sum big barriers on d path of life….in a word, I started seein no end 2 d dark passage….all I could c s d length of d tunnel widout a single glimpse of light in it…..n felt s though d whole world was consiprin against me…..n I was d lone victim of the whole conspiration…..

N den d miracle started happenin……1 fyne day started realizing all tat I had been cribbin abt, complainin abt was not tat bad….n tat ther s always a feelin of self contentment in d struggle 4 lyfe…tat ther s always a unknown happiness in facin d challenges of lyfe….n tat ther s always a satisfaction in bein all by oneself in dis tough thorned world….cuz tat gives u pure pleasure of livin d lyfe…..2 its fullest….lyfe has its own set of ups n downs n if one desnt go through all of ‘em wats d joy in livin lyfe anyway….d way happiness s a part of lyfe, pain s an integral part 2….n of course wen we relish happiness, y shouldnt pain b given d same view…..yeah…..of course we can….cuz at d end, pain s one which leaves us stronger, steadier n in a state wher we can c d real worth of happiness….if we donot face pain how can we realize how beautiful it s 2 b happy….n hence pain deserves a sincere applause….doesnt it….

My pain s increasing min by min….all d medications n efforts seem useless in givin me a relief….bt m not bein sadistic abt it anymore…in fact m enjoyin d pain….cuz soon it s gonna disappear n I ll b back 2 my normal self…but wen m back I ll be stronger den b4, I ll c thins 4m a different view,in which I ll appreciate every small happiness in a deeper way….n I ll love lyfe more than b4….n d credit 4 makin me appreciate lyfe more, goes 2 my pain….

Don really no how 2 xpress dis….but might b m fallin in love wid pain….d way love makes everythin seem starry, pain s makin me c only d beautiful facets of lyfe…..cheers pain….u r makin me fall 4 u….n now I can take u wid my arms wide open….d more u embrace me, d more I feel close 2 d beauty of lyfe…n u deserve all my love n respect….n m happy tat I realize it….might b later than I should ve, but I do….n wanna say it once more…..m fallin 4 u….yeah….pain…m in deep love wid u now….

A PURELY PERSONAL THOUGHT....IT'S MY LIFE....N CHEERS 2 SELF....

Many a tymes I come across a very common remark (or should I say criticism, certainly cant call it a compliment) tat m not realistic….n tat I do thins which makes me happy, rather than which r logical….n tat m kinda wastin my life dis way….at tymes these really do affect me….n I also start lookin my lyfe through their eyes…. I try bein sensible abt d serious issues(it s not tat otherwise I don, but now widout givin it my colored shades ), I start lookin st d problematic factes of lyfe 2 n I start bein unwelcoming 2 d fun element of lyfe….but soon I realize m not happy tat way…it makes me restless, makes me lose d peace of my mind…..n makes me feel lyfe 2 b so complicated….n soon I come back 2 my original self….wher I ve my own small world….wher m happy n contended n which makes me re realize tat lyfe s truly so ahmazin……..

Is lyfe all about d bigi bigi fundas….is lyfe all abt bein logical n realistic…n is lyfe all abt makin it sumthin which u really don understand at d end of d day…. I guess not….doesnt lyfe ve a greater meanin than tat….Is not lyfe beyond d struggle n d pain tat we all go through….actually it is…but we overlook dis truth cuz we all run after thins which r unrealistic in d name of realistic lyfe….we always hanker after thins which jus help us flaunt ‘em but not really help us be happy….we stay in illusion tat we r happy wid those thins but d moment we ask our heart we no we r not….cuz d real happiness doesn’t come 4m those thins….it comes 4m d pure contentment of d heart n dis s really priceless, condition less n much more greater than wat we really believe it 2 b…..heart s one which never lies n never leads us on d wron track….n wen it says tat it s not happy wid wat our minds wants 2 ow, it really speaks d truth….but d mind makes us believe in a diff way….n makes us a slave of d unrealistic reality of bein logical….n bein materialistic n makes us trust on those which r momentary, rather than d real truth of real happiness….

Dis makes me take lyfe d way I do….widout thinkin of justifyin it 2 any1 who wants 4 an explanation…every1 does ve their ryte 2 live d way they wanna live it….so dis feelin of mine s purely MY OWN….I don expect any other 1 2 believe dis, nor do I want ‘em 2 nod their heads 2 support me….it s a pure plain feelin tat I believe on….n every1 who criticizes me 4 takin lyfe d way I do, I hope dis makes enough sense 2 ‘em….n I desperately wish sumday they understand my psychology of letting lyfe take it s own flow….cuz all m doin s havin my own lil space in dis crowd, n it s worth takin d risk…cuz at d end of d day m bein happy….n it doesn’t really matter if others think m missin a lot accordin 2 their measurement…cuz m havin MY LIFE in my own way….in my own terms n conditions…n it makes me feel good….cuz s I said it gives my heart a feelin of pure happiness…..

So here s a toast 4 me n my lyfe…in fact 2 all who lives in their own way….n widout really let others pry in it…cuz every1 has their own set of thins 2 take care of in lyfe…n God hs created each lyfe uniquely n hs made sure tat s/he can handle it in d best way possible….so lets jus say CHEERS 2 LIFE….n most importantly CHEERS 2 SELF………….