TO ALL I LOVE...TO ALL MY SOUL MATES...

What I said was what I felt inside; and, it wasn’t fake
I knew it to be the right thing; and, never a mistake
When I said you touched a string in my heart; and created music
That was exactly how I heard; beautiful and classic
When I said I lost myself in your eyes; and found my world
That was an honest truth; although I know it was foolish and also bold
When I longed for your arms; I truly did
That was why I let you know; and never hid
When I told you I felt for you; it was real
I was naïve and insane; and it was an overpowering emotional zeal
I know, I messed things up; yeah I always do
What I didn’t realize is that; you too would know
Yeah, you always knew me; and so you knew me this way too
And I feel happy that you stood there; and never bid adieu
Probably you’re my soul mate; that I’m searching for all these years
And, with you by my side; my heart leaps, my soul soars and I’m free from all fears

PS. To all those, I love, I say I love, and I know I love…

THESE DAYS, I SMILE...AND WISH MORE...THAT EVERYONE DOES...

Well, last 3 days of this year and we have a brand new year in our lives...And probably this is my last blog for this year...And, as I start scribbling, I decide, why don't I just talk about all those things that's making me smile these days...Well, actually, there are a bunch of those and I think, it would be really something, I would excel in writing, 'cuz, the mere thought of those things is enough for me to lighten my mood up, yeah, yeah, you guessed it right...I'm already smiling...

Well, these days, I'm in my favourite city, with my brother, well that's where all my reasons to smile start...Well, we fight 40 percent of the time we're together, don't talk to each other 10 percent of the time, silently take care of each other 30 percent of the time and laugh like insane rest 20 percent...And this mere 20 percent makes life just far and far better than anything possible, and that makes me smile...Well, a huge part of my happiness revolves around being with my brother...Yeah, life seems so complete with someone like your own sibling, who is more than just a sibling…And, when it’s a younger brother, the fun is twice the more…He acts like your elder brother and scans your date, he acts like a mother and feeds you when you fall asleep without food, he acts like a father and rescues you when you’re trapped in situations… Yeah, he can be everything you need exactly when you do...And, when you know, he's your unofficial best friend, and official caretaker, you are the queen of the house...Yeah, life is just amazing with a brother of this sort…

These days, I'm with my mad gang of friends, who make me smile more than I could ever wish to...Everyone has their own way to get me the little drops of happiness that can lighten my face...If I need to travel, I get my friends booking their tickets too, to the same destination as mine...If I'm moving to a different place, I get my friends coming along, to accompany me...If I'm hungry, I get my pizza and pasta with coke delivered, right at my doorstep...If I want to eat homemade chicken, I get ten thousand invitations, to experience homemade chicken...If I'm broke I get my friends rushing to help me...If I want to have coffee, I find my friends driving me to my favourite coffee shop on the highway...And most importantly, if I'm teary eyed, I get my friends standing right by my side, the very next moment, with tissues in their hands...Yeah, they are a gang I feel proud of...Their smallest effort to make me smile, does really make me smile...In a place, away from my own family, they are my family, and would always be...A big portion of my happiness is sourced from them...Yeah, life is something to fall in love again and again, with a gang of friends of this sort…

These days, I'm with people, who make me feel I'm missed...Luckily or unluckily I happen to work in an industry, where it’s very difficult to maintain your professional and personal lives as two parallel entities, and these two are bound to cross roads, on a million occasions. Thanks to my stars, I had worked in a place where, I met people who became few very important parts of my life, both personal and of course professional. And, these days, when I’m away from few of them, they say they miss me…That makes me smile, not ‘cuz, I take pleasure in making them miss me, but, I realize they care for me as I do too…I always believed they did, but now, I believe it even stronger…And that ,makes me feel happy, ‘cuz I realize, in a place, where I knew no one, I made few relationships, which are beyond mere business, and are of love and affection…Yeah, that makes me smile, like a child, with a heart completely content and without complaints…Yeah, life is full of joy with people of this kind around…

These days, my mornings bring me a bouquet of sheer pleasures…I wake up to a bright and warm sun, bathing the surroundings…As I look out through my window, to a clear blue sky, I know I’m so alive…I see new hopes, new rays of fulfillment...And that makes me smile…And, when I set out to start my day with a freshly brewed coffee while chatting with my dad on phone, my senses find yet more reasons to be happy…The aroma sates my nostrils, the slow sips sates my taste buds, the talks with dad sates my soul, and the beauty of the amazing city with fog-clad serenity sates my sight…I find myself amidst a million reasons to brighten my mood too…I know, this day is something I’m going to treasure at the bottom of my heart, and whenever I feel the need, I would peep in and relive this day…And this definitely makes me smile…Yeah, life is so beautiful, with these pure and priceless indulgences…

These days, my morning journey to office has turned really interesting…8 in the morning, half sleepy, yet excitedly dressed up, and music on ears, 5 days in a week, I hop into a bus which would be insanely crowded and with the same set of people everyday…But, the whole effort doesn’t make me lose my calm (well, it does when the traffic drives me crazy), ‘cuz a lot of other things, and yeah, much more interesting things go on inside that ACed but ‘can’t-feel-the-AC’ red bus…Everyone seems to have a mysterious personality, with million different expressions on their faces, and watching these can truly make you amazed…That makes me smile…While the bus driver (who happens to remember that I had travelled in the same bus 2 years back, and he exactly knows where I want to get down, everyday, without fail) helps me place my rather huge bag next to his seat, so that I don’t have to struggle with it, the lady conductor gives a warm smile, that can brighten your face, even in the midst of that ‘I’m-almost-sandwitched’ situation…While, I feel the adoring stares of a cute looking guy on my face (well, constantly, and I happen to meet him almost every day), I also feel the amazed (no, wait, feared) stares of some other (probably he’s amused and scared with my scary cascades, and of course, insanely kohled eyes)…While at times, I busy myself in the book in my hand, and disappear from these all, I also make new friends (well, only girls) and adjust her bags in my seat, chat coherently, and plan to go out shopping…Yeah, so many instances, inside that closed bus…And, each of it has its own charm…And, yeah, each of those make me smile… Life is so strange, you don’t really know, when and where and how you make connections with other people…

These days, I’m fresh even after a long day’s work…Well, things keep happening at work, and certainly I’m in a state where I realize that I enjoyed work more in the other city than this, but then, I happen to forget these complaints most of the time…A gang of good co-workers (not-so-great clients though), and most importantly one among them as a friend, yeah, life isn’t that bad either…And, there’s always a lot of laughter, endless cups of coffee, a terrace to sit and chat and a lot of posing and lot of clicks, yeah, work is not a stressful entity at all…And that makes me smile…When, half of my friends crib about their work and workplace, I certainly have a job that gives me much more pleasure than pain…Life is so easy when your profession and passion meet at the same point…

These days, my late evening coffee makes me lift my mood up…After a long day (and yes, frozen in the chilly breeze), as I reach the coffee shop near my place, the uniformed guy knows exactly which mug I would prefer…By the time, I sit at the table in the corner, my coffee reaches my table too…And, as I sip on it I smile…My tiredness gets blown away with the aroma of the coffee, my almost chocked brain starts functioning again, and I relax…Yeah, it’s great to have a little time, all to myself, and let my thoughts wander…This happens to be the most priceless hour of my everyday…With a coffee in hand, phone in silent mode, ipod shut, and without any worries of my hair getting messed up, or my shirt un-tucked, or my stilettos dirty, yeah, this is a moment I love to wait for…All that stays in my mind is that, it’s me and me alone, with my thoughts, and without anyone’s interference… Life, with few moments all to yourself, is something more worthy than anything else possible…

These days, as I lay in bed, I realize that a beautiful day has come to an end…I realize, I have experienced something new today, learnt something little, seen something new…I realize, the day has passed without me having to shed any tears, without having to crib and complaint, without having to hurt anyone…And, that makes me smile…I realize that my surrounding is full of things that I’m in love with and which make me feel loved and cared back…I think of the people I’m in love with, I think of the things I’m passionate about, I think of the moments that I love to relive again and again…And, all these together, make me see the beautiful life with so much affection and pride…Yeah, I get happy with the mere thought of how amazing and eclectic life is…With things exactly the way they are, around me…Life, with so much abundance (might not be materialistic, but divine), is something, you know, you live for…

Yeah, these days, I smile…I smile a lot…And, as I do so, I feel proud to have experienced all those reasons and moments that make me smile…Wish, the days ahead bring smile to every lips around me…But, most importantly, wish, everyone around gets to see, that, life, in itself is full of reasons that have the power to bring the brightest smiles on our lips…
And, with this wish, here I go…Welcome, 2012…

GOODBYE 2011...

Well…Already in the last few days of 2011...Yes, the year almost got over…10 days, and we would see yet another new year…And, this gives me a need to look back and see what the bygone year brought me, what it took away, what I could do, what I couldn’t do, what I thought of doing and ended up in null, what I thought of doing never and ended up repeating often…and the list goes on…And, I feel a sheer need of doing this, because I know, by doing so, I would get some real pleasures of knowing what I had gone through in a long year, and if at all I could gather anything from the same…

Well, when I started 2011, things were not so happening in my life…With a broken relationship to handle, in an unknown (and not-so-favourite) city, with everyone around as strangers, almost all alone, yes life was not really anything highly motivating and happening…To add to the bouquet of worries, had a job that paid so little that I had hardly any way to feel proud of myself…But, only reason I was not able to leave my job was the fact that I was completely in love with it, and waking up every morning to go to my workplace was something I excitedly waited for every night before going to bed…Well, life was not really so difficult ever before… And, with everyone closed to me constantly nagging me to come back (they were genuinely worried of me suffering) to where my life could be as comfortable as I wished to, was something that added the extra bit of restlessness to my already bruised soul… And, yes I thought of quitting too…Many and many a times… But, somehow, something inside me told me to carry on, and somehow I kept postponing my plans of giving up …And, one day I knew that I was not going to give up…I knew, I was not going to let any excuse come on my way to convince me to see the easy and short...I knew, rather, I was going to fight with situations and make it happen in my own way...I was ready to face the challenges as they appeared in front of me, and I was ready to make my weakness my strength...And, today when I look back, I feel so proud for taking such a decision...Cuz, I see now, that that single decision had changed my life completely, and made me aware of what I actually want from life...

I know, I know, my journey in life has just begun, and I have miles to go...But, by now, I know on which route I'm supposed to walk, on which route I need to walk, on which route I should walk and most importantly, on which route I want to walk...And all this is, in order to reach the destiny I have figured out for myself...And, personally, that in itself is no less than an achievement for me...Yes, it is...Given that, half of my life I stay confused and can never figure out the right thing for myself, this very first step certainly does hold a magnificent importance...What's more, this baby step is more like the very first big leap, after which the complete journey seems rather a smooth relaxing walk...And, I'm so grateful to that decision of mine which made my this baby step possible...

In the bygone year, lot of such events took place which would always make me look back to this year again and again, and cherish those events and moments in every possible occasion...Yes, the time that is soon going to be history, have brought me amazing bunch of experiences and those, are something that are in the process of building my life, might be in bits and pieces, but yes those are...And, today, I realize, each of those moments is a very very strong brick on the wall of my life, and they are so perfectly cluttered together that, even if one slab is removed, the wall will not have its now perfect look...Yes, each and every moment from those time mattered, matters and would always do... Came across people who taught me critically needed lessons on truths, came across situations that showed me few hidden but real facets of life, came across ideas that could enlighten my darkness-encaved soul, yes, in a year of 365 days, came across an ocean of experiences, each differing from each other, each having its own charm, each of different intensity, and most importantly each with a completely different influence in the complete picture…That makes me agree to one of the punch lines that I have come across in the recent times (for a brand on which I worked), which is also my personal favourite, that says, ‘A day is not just a day, but a million eclectic moments, waiting to surprise you’…Yes, a day of million moments, a month of few such days, and a year of few such months, together a million million eclectic moments, actually did make me witness a sea of surprises of varied kinds… But, the commonness in all these is that, each of these had its own share of importance in my life, and that, is something that makes me feel so blessed and happy…

If I look back now, I realize, what made the gone year so very interesting for me is that during this year I came across people who would be always treasured all my life...In an unknown city, in middle of thousand unknown faces, managed to know few who made me feel so me...They always told me that at times I might fall down, but, that by no means meant that I’m weak…They told me, I’m more than what I always thought myself to be…They also told me, I could do whatever I wished to, only thing I needed to do is keep myself grounded and not let myself float in the sea of worries that I happened to face that time...They told me to shed tears, but at the same time taught me to wipe them...They told me to hide the vulnerable me inside a mask to stay safe from the rude world...They constantly told me I was much more stronger than I could even imagine...These might seem mere words, but this was what I needed at that point of time, to get myself together, to regain my faith, and most importantly to stand on my own feet…Met people who pampered me like a kid, who taught me like a student, who cared for me like my own parents, who let me get spoilt with affection, who hugged me when I went weak on my knees…And, most importantly, they never criticized me for being me, always let me be me, and yet stronger and matured…I tried knowing them, and they knew me back...I loved them, and they loved me back…And, most importantly made me feel that they are there, always, right by my side, even if I don’t happen to realize…Yeah, what more could I ask for, when I had people of this genuineness with and around me, exactly when I needed someone???

Well, today, when it is just a few days left for me to say a final goodbye to the goneby year, a sense of pride overrides my emotions…Pride, on being able to come across experiences that talks more of living than surviving…That talks of giving and recieving love...That talks of letting go than holding back…That talks of forgiving than forgetting…That talks of focusing more on the positives than cursing on the negatives…That talks of finding bigger happinesses in the small things than sensing little happinesses over bigger possessions…In short that talks of filling up this human life with heavenly pleasures…And, these pleasures are much much above than the mundane cribbings, chocking responsibilities, unrealistic search for joy, bruised emotions, shattered life events and most importantly attempted unfairness to our own souls…

Yeah, every single moment teaches us so much…Exposes us to so many facets all together…Reveals so many secrets of life…Takes us through a mini-journey… And, we don’t really have to bother why it happened…Cuz everything happens with a purpose…Every incident and accident in our lives has a reason why it occurs… And, the best part of each of these is that, once we come across them, it leaves some immortal asset with us, and we are left as a better person…Well, isn’t this betterness good enough to make the lives of our loved ones little better than they always have been…And, I'm fortunate to experience exactly this betterness, with everything that has happened in the time gone by...This very thought makes me feel so content and so pleased…My heart leaps with boundless joy, thinking of what I have gained, than worrying about what I could not… And, yes, this makes me feel so complete…

With this completeness, I’m all ready to welcome a brand new year…A year, where I hope to see everyone around me achieving the contentment they desire for…I wish and hope to see my parents smiling (and if it’s because of me, I would be in seventh heaven), my loved ones fulfill their dreams, their loved ones smiling and everyone else smiling too…And for myself…All I wish for myself is to be able to accept things the way they appear in front of me, never complaining, never to let my loved ones shed even a drop of tears because of me and yes, spread a little happiness around…But, most importantly, I wish to see the small drops of happinesses that come wrapped inside the small events that those million moments of an everyday brings…

Goodbye 2011, you were and will always be such inspiration in life…

AWAY FROM THE PAIN...

Well...The last week was a kind of emotional and traumatic journey for me...Well, nothing exactly happened directly to me...But, my near and dear ones were going through a really rough patch and that had made me kind of lose my peace of mind...My close ones were suffering from emotional breakdowns and somehow that had not gone too well with my understanding and love for life, and that had left me wondering highly negatively on human emotions, feelings and worse, on human relationships...And, in a word my inside was (and still is) cracked, crashed and broken, never to be mended again...

Practically, it's that time of my life, when I'm supposed to think about relationships on a serious note, should start thinking about getting a partner for life, and thereby think about starting a family...But, the
things constantly happening around me, just do not let me think on that line...What's worse, I have no clue, if any day I will be able to take things the way I'm supposed to, or rather take things easy and
practically, rather than taking them in a complicated and logical way...I guess, I really need to take a serious call...A call on letting myself see that at times, we need to witness a few emotional nightmares, need to go through a not-so-exciting roller coaster ride of emotional cacophony, need to make a few sacrifices, need to let few things go…and most importantly need to get ourselves together to resume the journey called life, all over again…

Well, I don't want to be philosophic and comment on anything that interests different individuals differently and thereby don't want to analyze anything from anyone's point of view...But personally, I'm certainly disturbed with human relationships being exploited the way they are (at least around me)...And all I can do is, scream from inside 'Why', and keep screaming...Certainly, I have no answer to my whys...And, I get confused even more, disturbed even more and lose faith in people even more with these unanswered whys of mine...Wish, things were little different, and wish I didn’t have to come across people who break trusts, insult faith and feelings of any kind don’t bother them...But, the saddest part is things don't happen the way we wish to, and hence, even I have been witnessing incidents and accidents that have left my heart bruised and me completely perplexed...And certainly it's not a feeling I ever wished to go through, at all...

Coming back to the root of my outbursts, I fail to understand one basic thing…It’s about relationships between two matured individuals….When two people get into a relationship, it means TWO PEOPLE are into it...And, that means, a decision that has importance and significance in both of their lives, should be taken on the basis of mutual understanding and relevance, and not as per only one's will, wish and convenience....But, in reality it doesn't seem to happen that way...In most of the situations, it so happens that when it comes to minor avoidable matters (including what time one gets up, what he ate in lunch, what he's planning for in the evening), apparently one cares to share each and everything, and, on the other hand, the important decisions of life are taken without the other person's concern, in fact without even knowledge...What's worse, these decisions are those ones, which can make or break an individual (and if he happens to be a little weak, those might even end one's life)...But, no, while taking these decisions, it so happens that, the other person is kept in sheer darkness...He doesn't even know, something is about to happen, and certainly is unknown to the repercussions of the same...It sounds so strange and unreal, and non-practical, and untrue, but, hell yeah, these do happen, and are constantly happening in the world...Well, I can forget about the world at this moment, cuz, these days these sort of things are happening around me, with people who are my dear and near ones...And, truly speaking these are making me lose faith in people, emotional connections and certainly relationships...I know I’m not being right on my part and being cruel to myself, but, well, I'm helpless...

Whatever I know from my limited knowledge on social science, history, anthropology, and anything of that sort, I always knew that, the one thing that holds the utmost importance in human society since time unknown, is relationships, which is again, a collective definition of love, emotions and feelings...And, that's how the human society was supposed to be...Relationships mattered more than anything, marriages were meant for lives, and words like commitment, dedication, togetherness were worshipped in all the ages...But, today, all these seem utterly meaningless...At a single time, people dare to carry on with a marriage, along with two other people (of course none knows about none) outside it...At a single time, people can be with two people, completely different from each other...Why!!!! Cuz, they want to experience both the worlds...Hell, yeah...That’s happening these days, in our so called edgy society, and we are witnessing it on a daily basis…We’re not able to do anything even if we witness these happening to others, and there comes a time, when these happen with us too…And yes, again, we are not able to anything…We cry, we crib, we curse the person who did wrong with us, we analyze every possible reason why those happened with us, we find faults in ourselves, we lock ourselves away from others for a while…And then, we come back to the real world, where these things have turned into something very common, and worse, people take it so easy…Are they really so practical???Or just that they are running out of emotions to even show how shocked they are???Could be anything…Yes, it could be anything…And why not, everything and everyone is so casual today, and more than that, unpredictable today…

I fail to understand, aren't these things, incidents and accidents completely based on materialistic happiness???And the sadistic part is, these happinesses are momentary and even those involved in those know it...But, they happen to ignore them...Reasons???It doesn't matter as long as they are finding some pleasure…Even if that’s at the cost of their loved ones’ tears…It doesn’t matter as long as they are sure of not looking back at those moments (and they are certainly sure of this)…And, yes, it’s pure selfishness…I realize, you need to be individualistic and self-centered to make it big in life, but hell, not selfish…Cuz, the moment you be selfish, all you think about is you and your happiness, even if that comes at the cost of others’ broken heart, bruised soul and crashed identity…Is it fair???Certainly not…But, why we fail to see that???No one has the answer…


Well, I’m certainly in a maze these days…In that maze, I’m losing the capacity to judge people, on the basis of what they portray…Losing the capacity to understand what makes human relationships survive, despite of thousand blows on them…Losing the capacity to realize the difference between situational demand and people’s actual motive…Losing the capacity to absorb the actual reality and prevailing reality…Yes, I’m in a maze…And my emotions running deep, can find no relevance to the world I’m exposed to…I know, these emotions are true, and honest but, I’m scared to even show this vulnerable side of mine to the world…Cuz, after witnessing what can happen to one with an emotional depth, I’m scared, lest my emotions too suffer from the same…Lest, I’m made to witness situations which will bruise my complete being…Yes, I’m scared…I don’t want to be a soul screaming out for help, but is unheard…And, probably that’s why, I’m thinking, I need to stay away…Away from all the agony, pain, tears and helplessness a situation could create… In a word, away from an emotional relationship…

THIS FEELING, IS IT LOVE!!!!

It's been really long since last felt this way

Yes...
It's been long since I last
Smiled when alone
Talked to myself
Wept in happiness
And, felt like living in fairy tale

Yes...
It's been long since I last
Longed for someone's arms around me
Got melted in someone's whisper in my ears
Lost my existence in the depth of someone's eyes
And, forgot the world with someone by my side

Yes...
It's been long since I last
Understood, I'm his Princess
Knew, my world is his too
Felt, so cared and protected
And, realized we're meant for each other

Yes...
It's been really long since last felt this way
It's been really long since last felt
I'm in love....

IT'S JUST ME....THE REAL ME...

Many a times I don't behave as I feel inside...

At times
I look strong on surface
I overcome problems in a blink
I can fight any difficulty
And, I can make others feel I don't need them....
But, the truth is
When I look the strongest
I'm the weakest deep down
I wear a layer of invisible shield
That hides my delicate soul
That's scared of the cruel world...

At times...
I look so weak on surface
I need someone feeding me
I want someone hugging me
I fail to even make myself a coffee
And, I can't make my tears stop even at the slightest hitch...
But, the truth is
When I look the weakest
I'm the strongest deep down
My delicate face hides everything
The ready-to-face-all-hurdles self
The determination and strength inside...

But then, it's just me...
Li'l strange, li'l predictable
Li'l crazy, li'l reliable
But always ready to
Face life, exactly the way it comes...
Yes, it's just me...the weird but real me...

CRISIS OF A SINGLE GIRL....

Well, finally, I guess I have a crisis…I mean, me, being a 25 years old, it’s officially very genuine that I should face this (in fact, and luckily I’m facing it little later than a normal girl), but then what can I do…All these years, I was happy realizing that, me, being my dad’s princess, I would not have to go through anything of this sort…Well, it seems, I was insanely wrong…And, now, as I recall that lately I’m actually having some major arguments with my mum over this topic (yes, I’m going to come to that), I realize, yes, I’m going through a real crisis…A crisis, that every girl has to go through in some point of their life…Especially, those who are single, or should I say, who don’t have a boyfriend…I guess, this one is more appropriate…

Well, finally, I guess I have a crisis…I mean, me, being a 25 years old, and especially being a girl, it’s officially very genuine that I should face this (in fact, and luckily I’m facing it little later than a normal girl), but then what can I do…All these years, I was happy realizing that, me, being my dad’s princess, I would not have to go through anything of this sort…Well, it seems, I was insanely wrong…And, now, as I recall that lately I’m actually having some major arguments with my mum over this topic (yes, I’m going to come to that), I realize, yes, I’m going through a real crisis…A crisis, that every girl has to go through in some point of their life…Especially, those who are single, or should I say, who don’t have a boyfriend…I guess, this one is more appropriate…

Well, from my own personal point of view, being single can be one of the most exclusive and enticing experiences you can have…You are free to do the best things in life, when you are single…You do not have to worry about leaving your boy friend behind when you go out on a ‘girls day out’ (you certainly feel sad about leaving him behind and having extreme fun, and thereby end up spending half of your shopping money buying gifts for him, as a making up gesture)…You do not have to worry about bringing your boy friend into your circle of friends (whom he doesn’t feel comfortable with and hence, feels odd, and thereby you need to stick to him, rather than executing why at the first place you came to your friends)… You do not have to plan your trip back home according to ‘both of your schedules’, and can fly back to see your parents any day you wish to…And, most importantly, you can save the time for your own small pleasures, that you have to save for your boyfriend to make him feel that he is a part of your life (and can use that time to write notes cribbing on any topic you wish to, painting some unreal portraits, sipping tropical ice bergs nonstop and the list goes on)…And, the list doesn’t end here…You can buy as many stilettos as you wish, without worrying about his heights, you can hog on any food without worrying to keep yourself fit to match his figure, and you can sleep as early as possible without worrying him (yes, he does worry when you don’t pick his calls, I guess he thinks you died)…And, once you experience this heavenly singleton, you know, single is the way to be…

But then, here comes the list of negatives, that bunch together to create a crisis…When you are single and have a group of friends who are no less than your soul mates, problems start…One best friend of yours thinks the other to be your boyfriend, and thousand reasons seem less to convince him that things are not the way he assumes to be…Well, certainly he doesn’t go away from you (‘cuz he’s your best friend, and will stand by you no matter what), but, his perception of you and the other best friend being a couple has no real cure…What’s more, your girl best friend tries to convince you to start a relationship with her cousin, or her childhood best friend whom she thinks can keep you happy all your life(she wants you to have a happy life you see)…

If you are a single girl, all the single guys around you seem to have a problem with that…They go on trying to flirt with you, and if you are genuinely friendly (overlooking and ignoring their crappy lines that they think they can impress you with), they think you are flirting back…And if you are genuinely rude, they think it’s a ‘Keep following me dude, I’ll be yours one day’ trick you are playing on them, and hence they pursue you even more… And, finally you lose your peace of mind…And, to be honest, this problem has no major solution…

Now, come to the worst dilemma on the list…When you are single, your mum thinks you are running away from marriage…She keeps trying her level best to know, if you have a boyfriend, and if you don’t, they think you are one of those kind, who doesn’t care for relationships…She starts looking for some idiot to make your match with him, and if you deny, she gets genuinely upset, ‘cuz she starts doubting her ability on bringing you up (certainly she thinks she brought you up to be an anti-relationship rebel)…And, those tears of hers, it’s really difficult to wipe, in turn, they make you super guilty…Your world seems foggy, with pain and tears, and guilt, and so on…

Well, what can I say…Crisis is actually an understatement for this series of trauma…I know, I know, being in love is one of the best things in life, and if you ask me, I’m a true follower of love, and thereby relationships…But, how do I make others understand that it’s not about love, relationship, having a boyfriend, or a marriage…It’s about getting into something, that I would not be able to handle and thereby which can challenge my sanity…I know, I can just ignore everyone, I can just forget the world, I can just forget who says what, and I can just let things bounce over my head…But, what I can’t just let slip out of my head, or rather my heart is that most of these who are concerned about me not having a boyfriend, are ones very close to my heart… And, at any cost they want me to be happy…And, every bit of their talks, anger, emotional colourmails, advices, requests, perusals (and all emotions of that kind), has only one focus…That being my happiness at the end of it…And, the result???I am tied up…And, the only thing I can do is take out my phone, type all what I feel (most of it are frustrated blabbers), and update on my social networking site (well, thank God, I have a page where no one would feel sad to read blabbers, if at all they read)…And, precisely that’s what I’m doing right now…

Uff…Being single, does really have a list of problems…And, dealing with them is a real crisis…And I don’t know what should I term it as…Crisis of being single…or...Crisis of a single girl…

HIM AND ME....

He says, I don’t know the real world
It’s cruel and doesn’t let us be one…
I say, I don’t want to know the real world
‘Cuz it’s cruel and it doesn’t let us be one…
He says, I’m childlike
I don’t see the big bad world that keeps me away from him…
I say, I want to stay childlike
If that helps me not see the big bad world that keeps him away from me…
He says, I’m little insane
I don’t understand what he says…
I say, I’m little insane
‘Cuz, I don’t want to understand what he says…

Then he looks at me, and I look at him…
He takes me in his arms…
I forget the real world…So does he…
And, we stay happily ever after…

CHANGE....AND THE HAPPINESS IT BRINGS...

It's just a matter of time how things change
It's just a matter of situations how feelings change
And, it's just matter of wish how lives change

At times, changes bring pain and tears
And, some other times, they bring the world
Coloured with love, passion and happiness

But, what makes these changes special
Are the people who come along, in every turn where changes occur
And, life gets beyond beautiful with their presence....

Feeling happy for myself these days
'Cuz, lot of changes have taken place in my life
In the last few years....
And, today, I'm happy
With what I've gained, and most importantly whom I've met
'Cuz of those changes.....

NOSTALGIA, AND A SOAKED SOUL....

It's that time of the year
When nostalgia soaks the soul
And we pause for a while and look back...
To see
What we've left behind
What we're carrying along
And, what we'll store all our life...

Yes, it's that time of the year
When emotions speak out
The good, the bad and the ugly
But, also leave the bads and uglies behind
Only to carry the goods along...

Like everone else
Even I'm looking back...
And, as I do so, I realize

What an eclectic year it was...
One of those kinds, which taught me
Some of the best lessons of my life...
And, helped me being a stronger soul...

Met few amazing people and knew
They're going to be a part of me all my life..
Let few others slip out of my mind
And with that, realized that
It was one of the best decisions I had ever made...

Gained an ocean of experiences
Amazingly amazing
Brilliantly illuminating
And, critically needed...

Laughed a lot..and learnt to make others laugh....
Cried a lot...but learnt to wear a smile after that...
Loved, and got loved back...and realised that's the best medicine in
the world...

Yes, what a year it was...
And, as I prepare myself for a new one
I know, this one is going to even better than the last...
Cuz
It would bring even newer experiences
And at the same time, will let me store the old ones...
And, with this combination life would be
Just so exclusive, exciting and enticing...
Yes, it's really worth the wait...

LOVE ME ALWAYS...EVEN AT MY WORST, THE WAY YOU DO AT MY BEST...

When I see your eyes
I know, you love me
And, I realize I'm alive...

Often I know
You're proud of me
You're the happiest with me
You see a new meaning of life with me....

But, many a times
I'm afraid, lest you stop loving me someday...

'Cuz
I know
I'm not the perfect one for you
And can't make you perfect, being by your side...

I know
I'm not the ideal one for you
And can't make you feel lucky, by being in your life...

I know
I'm not the rightest one for you
And can't make you feel 'You're special' by any means...

I know
I make you freak out many a times
I make you lose your mind countless times
I make you get mad at me a million times...

But, then
I want you to know
I always need you to love me with your heart and soul
I always need you to want me with all your passion
I'll always need you to be next to me all my life...

'Cuz
Your love means the world to me
And, that's what makes me survive
Despite of all odds in life...

And that's why I need just one thing from you...
Today and everyday...
No matter what comes on our way...

Love me even at my worst
The way, you do at my best...

PS. For all, whom I love, and who love me back...and whom I want to love me always....

WHEN IT'S LOVE.....IT'S YOU WHO IT'S MEANT FOR.........

'LOVE' happens to me very frequently

I fall in love very often
And, with that, my soul gets soaked in its depth...
I fall out of love too....very often
And, then I experience a ride through the desert...

Everytime when LOVE happens
I enter in a fairyland...
My dreams see their destiny
My hopes decorate the days ahead
And, tender ecstacy turns me pleasantly drowsy...

Each of my love stories
Has its own charm
And, happens to be very different from one another

Everytime LOVE happens
I plan my future with him
And, none of the plans resembles one another...

And...
Everytime LOVE happens
The intensity of my love changes
Making each time
A complete different and unique journey alltogether

But, then...
In each of my love stories
There is something, that never changes
And, that is
THE ONE WHOM I LOVE

Because,
In all my affairs
He always is the SAME person..
And, that is YOU...

Yes, no matter how many times I fall in love
It's always YOU, who I fall for....