WELCOMING A BRAND NEW YEAR.........

It’s been long that I’ve last updated my blog…And today, sitting at the last week of the year (or should I say, the most exciting and vivacious year of my life), I wanna pen down something, exclusively for myself….And what can be more gracious to conclude this year’s blogging, than updating it with my own evaluation of the journey I kept continuing all through, despite of all the hurdles (at least in my own tiny way) and at times, almost some kind of breakdown feeling….

Well….in general, I’m a person, who doesn’t believe in taking so called ‘New Year Resolutions’, cuz, I know ‘M too impulsive to follow any of them…..So, as always last year (or rather at the end of the last year too), I didn’t have any sort of resolution, which I would have planned to follow throughout the year….And accordingly I ended up having a year, with a great deal of ‘Ups & Down’…’Hues & Cries’…’Smile & Tears’…and the list goes on….To be really honest, in fact I myself never expected so much of them…..But the truth is, I had a year with the largest nos of incidents and accidents….and the best part of each of them was that, I was taught an array of new things every time I encountered them…. And so, I pat myself for not planning my life in a sorted out way…..Well, as the saying goes, what is the fun in watching a movie, if you already know the story of it…..And, that is how….I’m more than happy to experience each and everything of what the year unfolded for me (no doubt most of them had made me shed tears, and the amount of tears I shed during the year can beat the collective amount of my entire life)……………

The year itself had started in the most unexpected note for me….or rather should I say, in a ‘Transitional Note ???’…..Whatever it might be, it was surely not the usual way….And as the year started rolling, lot of things, on which I used have blind faith, turned out to be utter misleading truths of life…..And on the other hand, things which I used to ignore all through, became the most important parts of me…..And this itself was one of the very few things that almost lifted my life upside down…..There was a time, when I found myself, standing on the middle of a road, which was out my wildest imagination….And things around was, so strangely strange that I could not figure out (at most of the times) whether I really was a part of all that…. And when I came back to reality, it was time to know that I had to start everything from the beginning, all over again……

And…I did….Maybe cuz, I had no choice to make….Maybe cuz, I had realized inside me that, it was the best for me…..or maybe cuz, I wanted to do it….And finally, I resorted to a new life (of course with a lot of tears shed)….Got into a place, which I was the most scared of…..and not to mention all alone (leaving all my friends behind, and disappointing them to the core, but trust me, you guys are my life)….There was a time, at this phase, when I had cried while traveling….while in office….while sleeping….while eating food…. And all the tears, finally made me realize that every drop of it makes a drop lesser for the future….That is how, I started feeling strong, and today I feel stronger than ever……I feel, I’m back in my own small world, only difference between the one I had earlier is that now I have lesser reason to shed tears about…..have lesser people to care about…..have lesser people who make me cry…..have lesser people to make me hate myself……And most importantly have MORE and MORE reasons to feel happy about….

And that makes me come back to the BIGGEST and TRUEST conclusion of life…That life really IS STRANGE….Today the things that keep you and your interest occupied, tomorrow you will learn to live without them….So where is the reason to plan out your life with only certain things in focus….Cuz, if there is one small shake, the entire plan goes haywire…..So, at the end, it doesn’t really matter, what we planned, unless and until the assumed result doesn’t show up…..Hence, have been taking chances with things in life….And I’m positive about enjoying the journey twice more than I would have, had I planned it perfectly….

Well….enough of self-analysis…..it’s time, I stop thinking and let my hair loose….Of course, it’s time for welcoming a brand new year…In a brand new way…..And wish, like the last one, this year too brings an extravagant bouquet of experiences for me…..

Wish all my loved ones one of the most mesmerizing year ahead…………………

CONFESSION OF A DAUGHTER.......MISS U DAD..........

This is exclusively for you Dad....oh no....’ My Dita’....At this hour of night I’m missing you....The loneliness surrounding me is making me miss those moments when you used to tell me stories to make me sleep....Your hand in my then short hair had always made me feel the world so safe.....I miss you so much....And that is why this is for you.....I might have never told you anything of what I m going to tell you today....Probably cuz I had a feeling that you have already known every bit of it, or might be cuz, I always wanted to keep those away from you....But I want you to know that you are the one person in my life whom I love without a condition.....And you are the one person who have always been 'my life' all through....
You know something Dita....you are my superhero.....Did I ever tell you about those classroom exercises, where I had to write essays on the topic ‘My Ideal Person’...You know what Dita...I had always ended up writing about you....Cuz you are really the one person in my life whom I find the most perfect one....But I had never shown any of those writings to you, cuz I always feared you might not like those.....cuz I had seen your writings (oh there is a secret, I always used to sneak into your diaries, I’m sorry Dita) and I had seen how fabulous they were.....And that had always made me get close to the world of fiction (and apparently I had ended up creating my own fairy land)....
Dita...I always loved being your Princess....I long for those days when you and me used to throw pranks on mom....I long to go back to those days when you used to protect me from anything and everything....I long to run back to those times when you used to sing for me....I miss those evening talks (I used to look forward for those cuz it could always save me from books, but didn't know those would be something I would die to get back).....Every single moment of those are so fresh in my mind...And they will always be.....And I just wish they never got over.....
You know Dita, every single word of yours act wonders on me....If I’m in thousand problems and I get to talk to you for a minute too (which always happens, cuz you always know when I need you, as you say it is telepathy), I get all the strength and courage in the world back....Everything falls back on track, life gets smoother and easier, exactly the way you have always craved it for me.....Do you know a truth, I can overcome any and every problem in my life, just that your presence (even if in the form of few soothing words) is always a mandatory....
The world seem so easy when you are around....The world seem so lively and amazing when your love is around me....Your words are the best medicine to cure any of my anxiety.....Your presence is so much needed in everything and anything I ever attempt for.....True, without you I will be nothing Dita......
You mght think at times that I have grown up and can take care of my own self....And at times I might act arrogant to prove that I really have grown up and have turned self dependent....But bottom of our hearts, we both know the truth.....You know that I still need you to take care of me, and Me??? I’m still the kid at heart, who used to get scared to go out in dark and always needed your hand to hold mine.....I’m still the arrogant kid, who never used to go to school without 3 kisses from you on my forehead.....I’m still the afraid kid, who used to sleep only if you had sat beside my bed....I have not grown up yet Dita.....Atleast when it comes to your love and care, I’m still the small kid who longed for your lap.....
I miss you so much Dita.....Teardrops stop listening to me when I miss you....But you donot worry...Your Princess also knows that her Dita wants her to be strong.....And you know right Dita...That I will never let you down.....But just want you to know one thing....I miss you....And I feel proud that I’m your daughter.....Love you Dita.......

MEMORIES.....THEIR AFTERGLOW.....N SOME HELPLESSNESS......

Just a while back was listening to a song Afterglow…..every word of it was speaking my mind out….How true it is…..Only in the afterglow of anything and everything we do realize the worth of it….. It is only when we walk down the memory lanes that we realize the good times we experienced….It always happens that the past matters more than the present…..Probably that is why we always want to treasure different moments captured….Probably that is why we always end up building our future on the ground of the past….Cuz once PRESENT turns into PAST we realize how wonderful it was….

People say we should forget the past to start a new beginning….And the very base of it speaks how impactful a past can be….Unless and until one does not forget the past the future seems to be dull and difficult…Why??? Cuz we always end up realizing that the past was so beautiful that to match up with the same the future really need to be extraordinary….And that is how memories influence us to be immersed in them all through….

Memories…..the best of the best when they inspire to look forward for a brighter future….And the worst of the worst if they shadow up the hope of living for the future…..And at this phase of my life it is completely beyond my capability to judge whether my memories are my asset or the biggest barrier on my future dreams…..It is being beyond my control to rescue myself from the shadow of the past memories and every bit of those make me lose myself into a world which I really fail to recognize….At times they make me feel proud to have experienced them…..and at the same time they make me realizes that so much have changed by now and this realization brings some silent tears without my knowledge…..And I end up losing myself in their hands……….

At times I look for a way to escape from the memories….but they are so overpowering that they have covered me up like the blanket of fog a winter morning….like the shadow that never wanna leave us behind…..And it makes me helpless…………I go weak on my knees….And jus wish things never changed…. Nothing pains worse than the realization that things could have turned out the way they were……..And when it happens that one never wanted a change at the first place, the pain doubles…..

Time changes…..situations change…..and also the people around you do…But the essence of their presence never does…..In fact every possible related experience takes us back to those moments which we shared together….A piece of music, a fragment of fragrance…..and touch of a familiar breeze…….all of them keep taking us back to the moments we have lived before….And they do not let us come out of those moments….

As I put these feelings down I realize how much I long to go back to those moments….The moments shared with my near and dear ones…the small unreasoned talks….the small arguments….the aimless walks in the middle of the nights...all of these had spiced up the life to get some unforgettable memories created……Still the fragrance of the coffees are fresh on my nostrils….still the unbearable taste of the half cooked foods are fresh on my tongue….and still the chilled evenings are fresh to feel them….Yet things are not the same anymore….And that is how every bit of those real happenings have turned into only memories….And however my soul screams for those to come back to me, the reality is they are nothing but long gone past……

There is no end to the pain that I have been experiencing cuz of my memories….And also there is no cure to escape from those……And the helplessness makes me suffocate to the core….Just keeping the hope alive that someday…perhaps someday my walks through the memory lanes will come to an end and I would start walking towards my future……..And I wish that happens soon….Cuz I do not want to just live in the afterglow of anything and everything…..and also do not want my memories to haunt me everywhere I go…..And yes…My memories have become haunted shadows after me, blocking every way towards my future…….

FOR YOU....WITH LOVE.......

You will never know what you meant to me…You will never know what you gave me…You will never believe when I say you all that I could ever want…You will never realize how much my heart longs for you…. You will probably never get to know….But truths are always truths….And so even if you never know this truth will also remain true till the end of the story..

You filled my life like no one ever did…..You filled my heart like no one ever could……..When I lost road you guided me……..When I lost the world you created one 4 me…When I slipped on the paths of life you stood holding my hands…..You laughed with me…..You cried with me….You cried for me….You did everything for me….You gave me a partner 2 laugh with….You gave me a shoulder to cry on…..In short you filled my life with everything one could possibly think for…..

You told me ‘Life is beautiful’ and I could really see the beauty around me….with you….You told me ‘Dreams come true’ and I could always turn my dreams into reality…..You told me ‘I can do wonders’ and I really did wonders in everything I tried…..All you said always came true……Do you know why???? Because you were there to tell me what is right and what was not…….But the biggest truth was you knew me more than I do myself….And that is how you could know what can be the best for me…..

You were my friend, philosopher and guide….You showed me what life could offer….You taught me how to fight back in life…You taught me everything that can made me love life….What more….You helped me walk along the paths of life, by holding my hands….And that had made me feel that the journey of life is so easy and amazing….

You were right there when I was in trouble….Your arms were around me to shield me from any hardness of life….You stood by me when I was alone and devastated….You collected my energy when life had planned to gun me down……..You boosted my morale, you enhanced my mind, you enriched my thoughts….. And when I sobbed you were there to wipe my tears off…..

You gave me the best gift of my life…’LOVE’….You taught me what love is….You taught me how to love….And you taught me how beautiful it can be….And it was indeed more beautiful and charming because the person I fell for was YOU….Your innocent eyes, soft talks, warm smile….Everything about you made me fall deeper and deeper in love with you….But the best part of your love was you made me change….You made me being a better person….You taught me the values of life…Your love made me see the world from the best angle possible…..Where there was no selfishness, no hatred and no condition of giving and taking….


Thanks….For everything….For bringing the good out of me….For making me see life in a better way….For making me see the world as a better place to live in….For making me feel loved….For telling me what I could do…..For teaching me how to love….For each and everything…..You are one of the best chapter of my life book, which I want to read again and again….over and over again….


This is to let you know what you were for me….you are for me….and you will be for me…..Things may change, the world may change, and even you may change….But your presence in my life will always be felt….Your space in my life will always be the same…..You may walk ahead or away from me, but I will always place myself at a distance where I can stretch my hands and reach yours….Because the journey in life gets more and more amazing when you and me together…….And I know God has already built the road of journey and has also decided the destination…..All we have to is reach there…..I know the journey will not be a bed of roses, but we both together can conquer the worst of anything….So I am sure the journey will one of the most thrilling one could ever imagine…..

Cheers to ‘US’……..This is for you....With all my love....

FALLIN IN LOVE WID PAIN..............

It’s been 2 days…..n m in pain….n unlike always dis tyme it s not of my heart n mind…….it s a physical pain….but unlike d pains in heart, dis tyme it s quite bearable….in fact sumhow dis pain s making me feel glad……probably cuz it s actin s an escape root 4 me 4m my complicated thoughts….sumtymes pain has its own god points….it makes u 4get d unwanted complexities of life…it makes u feel other difficulties of life minor….n most importantly it makes u resistant 2 any other miseries of life….n tats wat my pain s doin 2 me now….it s makin me 4get other troubles in lyfe….n 4 a change m likin it….

Well….there was a tyme wen d very thought of pain used 2 scare me….d very thought of sufferin used 2 handicap me…. N adjustin 2 troubled situations was a thin beyond my imagination…….n I considered myself incapable of any of that….in fact I really was….it takes a bit of courage 2 admit but yeah, I was a spoiled kid….spoiled in a way, I was not supposed 2 b….tat made me arrogant, self centered…..headstron, wicked….n most importantly nobody ever tried 2 change d way I was…everybody I had come across till date never tried stopping me 4m bein so, n instead, encouraged, reason bein they always ended up pamperin me….rather than letting me face d hardship of lyfe….n now wen m goin through d most difficult phase of my lyfe, I miss ‘em…sumtymes wish they never did so much 4 me….n most of d tymes I curse ‘em 4 makin me so vulnerable in lyfe….4 makin me so weak in lyfe….so weak tat wen it was my turn 2 face d world alone I was barely able 2 stand n my feet…my legs were shakin n my own weight seemed much heavier than I could really take….d smallest of negative incidents could leave me devastated, d smallest of d thorns left me bruised n d smallest of stones on d path looked sum big barriers on d path of life….in a word, I started seein no end 2 d dark passage….all I could c s d length of d tunnel widout a single glimpse of light in it…..n felt s though d whole world was consiprin against me…..n I was d lone victim of the whole conspiration…..

N den d miracle started happenin……1 fyne day started realizing all tat I had been cribbin abt, complainin abt was not tat bad….n tat ther s always a feelin of self contentment in d struggle 4 lyfe…tat ther s always a unknown happiness in facin d challenges of lyfe….n tat ther s always a satisfaction in bein all by oneself in dis tough thorned world….cuz tat gives u pure pleasure of livin d lyfe…..2 its fullest….lyfe has its own set of ups n downs n if one desnt go through all of ‘em wats d joy in livin lyfe anyway….d way happiness s a part of lyfe, pain s an integral part 2….n of course wen we relish happiness, y shouldnt pain b given d same view…..yeah…..of course we can….cuz at d end, pain s one which leaves us stronger, steadier n in a state wher we can c d real worth of happiness….if we donot face pain how can we realize how beautiful it s 2 b happy….n hence pain deserves a sincere applause….doesnt it….

My pain s increasing min by min….all d medications n efforts seem useless in givin me a relief….bt m not bein sadistic abt it anymore…in fact m enjoyin d pain….cuz soon it s gonna disappear n I ll b back 2 my normal self…but wen m back I ll be stronger den b4, I ll c thins 4m a different view,in which I ll appreciate every small happiness in a deeper way….n I ll love lyfe more than b4….n d credit 4 makin me appreciate lyfe more, goes 2 my pain….

Don really no how 2 xpress dis….but might b m fallin in love wid pain….d way love makes everythin seem starry, pain s makin me c only d beautiful facets of lyfe…..cheers pain….u r makin me fall 4 u….n now I can take u wid my arms wide open….d more u embrace me, d more I feel close 2 d beauty of lyfe…n u deserve all my love n respect….n m happy tat I realize it….might b later than I should ve, but I do….n wanna say it once more…..m fallin 4 u….yeah….pain…m in deep love wid u now….

A PURELY PERSONAL THOUGHT....IT'S MY LIFE....N CHEERS 2 SELF....

Many a tymes I come across a very common remark (or should I say criticism, certainly cant call it a compliment) tat m not realistic….n tat I do thins which makes me happy, rather than which r logical….n tat m kinda wastin my life dis way….at tymes these really do affect me….n I also start lookin my lyfe through their eyes…. I try bein sensible abt d serious issues(it s not tat otherwise I don, but now widout givin it my colored shades ), I start lookin st d problematic factes of lyfe 2 n I start bein unwelcoming 2 d fun element of lyfe….but soon I realize m not happy tat way…it makes me restless, makes me lose d peace of my mind…..n makes me feel lyfe 2 b so complicated….n soon I come back 2 my original self….wher I ve my own small world….wher m happy n contended n which makes me re realize tat lyfe s truly so ahmazin……..

Is lyfe all about d bigi bigi fundas….is lyfe all abt bein logical n realistic…n is lyfe all abt makin it sumthin which u really don understand at d end of d day…. I guess not….doesnt lyfe ve a greater meanin than tat….Is not lyfe beyond d struggle n d pain tat we all go through….actually it is…but we overlook dis truth cuz we all run after thins which r unrealistic in d name of realistic lyfe….we always hanker after thins which jus help us flaunt ‘em but not really help us be happy….we stay in illusion tat we r happy wid those thins but d moment we ask our heart we no we r not….cuz d real happiness doesn’t come 4m those thins….it comes 4m d pure contentment of d heart n dis s really priceless, condition less n much more greater than wat we really believe it 2 b…..heart s one which never lies n never leads us on d wron track….n wen it says tat it s not happy wid wat our minds wants 2 ow, it really speaks d truth….but d mind makes us believe in a diff way….n makes us a slave of d unrealistic reality of bein logical….n bein materialistic n makes us trust on those which r momentary, rather than d real truth of real happiness….

Dis makes me take lyfe d way I do….widout thinkin of justifyin it 2 any1 who wants 4 an explanation…every1 does ve their ryte 2 live d way they wanna live it….so dis feelin of mine s purely MY OWN….I don expect any other 1 2 believe dis, nor do I want ‘em 2 nod their heads 2 support me….it s a pure plain feelin tat I believe on….n every1 who criticizes me 4 takin lyfe d way I do, I hope dis makes enough sense 2 ‘em….n I desperately wish sumday they understand my psychology of letting lyfe take it s own flow….cuz all m doin s havin my own lil space in dis crowd, n it s worth takin d risk…cuz at d end of d day m bein happy….n it doesn’t really matter if others think m missin a lot accordin 2 their measurement…cuz m havin MY LIFE in my own way….in my own terms n conditions…n it makes me feel good….cuz s I said it gives my heart a feelin of pure happiness…..

So here s a toast 4 me n my lyfe…in fact 2 all who lives in their own way….n widout really let others pry in it…cuz every1 has their own set of thins 2 take care of in lyfe…n God hs created each lyfe uniquely n hs made sure tat s/he can handle it in d best way possible….so lets jus say CHEERS 2 LIFE….n most importantly CHEERS 2 SELF………….

GUILT....AND A BROKEN HEART..........

Just had a glance in the mirror...An unknown strangeness hit me back on my face...Getting it difficult to believe it is me...Dark hollow eyes...charmless face.....And continuously flowing tears.....Is that really me....And if yes what has made me be this....For the first time in ages I'm feeling guilty for ruining myself this way....Desperately trying to search for the eyes that had the glitters to brighten up the around...That had dreams to make something big in life....But now the ones that are being reflected on the mirror are surely not the same ones….And the realization of the truth somehow brings me sheer pain…..Some unknown aches crop up and it just tears my heart apart....

People say ups and down are rules of life….But when these happen at the most unrealistic manner faith gets lost….I guess at this point in my life, me too is in the same circumstances…..Where losing faith on things that were supposed to be my strengths….Losing trust on people and getting it difficult to realize the flow of life…In a word losing the track on which I should move on….I know there is no way anyone can help me unless and until I do myself…But the difficult part is things don't really happen the way we want them to be….And it is difficult to accept the reality and that's how people ruin their lives…..

I guess I'm doing the same too….Ruining life for things which are not meant to be mine….People not meant to be for me….And the worst part, I'm not being able to make my weak heart understand this fact…Might be cuz I took things pretty seriously when they were not supposed to be taken that way….Might be cuz I believed in dreams more seriously than I should ideally have…Might be I believed in promises more seriously when they were just made to be broken….But who does realize the consequences or rather who wants to realize the consequences of a flow when it is in full pace…….The effect is analyzed only when the story gets over….Only aftermaths make us realize that it was a nightmare….I'm realizing the same now….When things kept getting out of track I didn’t realize they were so…When things kept going haywire I didn’t know how to stop it…And now when things are at their edges I suddenly realize I should have acted li'l more cautiously…..

All I realize now is that my dreams are broken…..my heart is broken….It might not have sounded much to others' ears but it surely was a great fall…It is broken in way that can't be mended any day….And might be that's what I deserve….Just feel li'l lost cuz I was promised to be helped out everytime I go wrong…I was promised to be held hands everytime my steps shiver…I was promised to be never left alone…But it has happened….And it just leaves a pang in my stomach…Not cuz my dreams got shattered….neither cuz I ended up being alone….Nor cuz I was deceived by my own people….I'm lost cuz a sense of guilt has cropped in my mind….For not being able to do justice for the things which mattered the most for me….For not being able to make my people understand that I cared for them too….Equally….or might be more than they did…..But that couldn’t happen….And now there is no way it can be possible again….

The image in the mirror….desperate in search of finding a way out to come out of a guilt...yes, the image will never be the same again….The innocence, charm, confidence and the joy has gone lost from the face for lifelong…And all it can think of now is to survive somehow…in this world of sufferings…all alone…all by herself….and waiting with a hope…..A hope that, someday somewhere there would be an end to this pain….And most importantly the GUILT…..

N……TATS HOW MY STORY GOES……

Wandering thoughts…..lost soul…..And psychic state of mind……Yeah….All that describes INSANITY…..And at this point that's what the state of my mind is…..And undoubtedly that is caused by nothing but my lost love…..Or rather ‘the feeling of lost love’……Yeah that's more accurate…THE FEELING…….Even if the truth holds something else yet the feeling of doubt complicates life….And without letting me find a scope to CONTROL my emotions it is making me paralyzed….Paralyzed in the worst way possible….And when I look for the reason which is breaking me down I clearly see it…..And that is my GUILT….And yeah….That's my guilt….The guilt of hurting some true emotions….The guilt of being a stubborn heavy header….The guilt of being arrogant at the point of need……And the guilt of breaking some heart as violently as I could….The worst part was when the heart was broken it didn’t sound much….And that made me unaware of the breakage…..And since I lacked so called ‘understanding’ and a ‘long-sightedness’ I couldn’t even realize that the reason of the crack in the delicate heart was ME….The insane, arrogant, head-strong me……..

Paulo Coelho says…’Love is the most constructive feeling….at the same time it is the most destructive one too’….How true he is…..When love acted as the constructive force on me, I made it have the destructive effect on the heart which made me feel like a princess….Which thought of me as the last resort….Which made even my heart skip faster….And which made me see a fairy tale world……And me, blinded with my arrogance and insanity didn’t realize it when I should have….Instead I kept playing with that heart….Kept making that heart weep….And kept ignoring the pain piling on it…..And when it broke the blood spilled on me…..And that's when I realized what had I done…..The realization made me bit sensible…But alas…It was late….Cuz there was nothing left in that heart anymore….Not even the strength to shed tears any more…..And surprisingly it made me change….In an unexpected way….It made me grow up….Made me realize what pain is….And the realization also brought the worst feeling one could ever possibly have…..yeah….that's GUILT…..

When one feels guilty he is destroyed….Cuz all he can think of is to go back to the past and clean up the mess he created……All he can think of is the ‘what if’ element of life….All he can realize is how destructive he had been all the time….And all these feelings lead to only one conclusion…..Loss of peace of mind….One starts living in the past, rather in the point in which the mistakes were made….And he starts thinking of all the ways possible,in which those could be undone….That ends up in insanity….in frustration….in confusion….And it gives one nothing but pain…Yeah….I'm in pain too…Cuz I too wish I could go back to the moment when I was plotting my unknown plan of breaking the heart which had been beating for me all the while….And yeah now I feel guilty…confused…frustrated….And mostly INSANE…..

There is no end to my guilt….Nor does to my insanity……And this deadly combination has overtaken the page on which my story is being written….There is no end to any of it…..The deadlier the combination gets the more dramatic my story turns out to be…There comes ups....downs…laughter… tears….confusions…. clarifications…love…hatred…..and….drama….And some more drama….There is really no end to these……

And that is how my story goes…..on and on…..And on…..AND ON….

A TRIBUTE 2 LOVE.......A SIMPLE CONFESSION......

It s been quite sumtyme I ve been tryin my best 2 take ‘love’ outta my life….put ‘passion’ in a backseat ….n keep ‘romance’ s d last in my priority list….but sadly it s not happenin….it s not owin 2 d fact tat at dis point of life m madly n passionately in love wid sum1….nor 4 d fact tat romance s all I ve been experiencin 24/7 all through….but it s cuz I’ve been passionately in love wid every bit of my life since I didn’t even no wat ‘love’ n ‘passion’ meant…..I rem lovin each n everythin I do n every bit of whatever comes on my way…..cant really say y so but I stil rem lovin even every bit of my pain n struggle in life….probably tat s cuz I love 2 b in love…doesn’t matter wid wat…..

People say ‘Love makes d world go round’……n I say love makes everythin green n floral…..yeah….tats true….love d rain, it ll softly drench u n make ur heart skip……love d flower, it ll amuse u n make u smile….love d wind, it ll make ur hand play wid ur hair…..love, love n some more love…..n world s so beautiful….once u r in love everythin falls on track….u can fyte any damn prob….u can afford 2 jump in any trouble n u can afford 2 think d unexpected….n tats how u can make d impossible possible….n best thin abt love s once u r in love u r 4ever in love….doesnt matter how much u try u ll never learn 2 hate…u ll 4ver love…

Now wen I think I realize, tat s wat happens 2 me all d tyme…..I fall in love wid sumthin n stay in it 4ever….n d truth s, it s not bad at all….cuz at least it makes me happy….makes me laugh..…n makes me hope 4 d best tyme 2 come….it makes me keep my faith alive….n never lets me get exhausted of d roughness of life…. life s anyway short….so if half of it goes by bein in love or rather bein melted in it wats d point makin life complicated by tryin 2 come outta it….if fallin outta love means makin urself cry n curse love y do we need 2 do it….it s easy 2 live life wid love rather than widout….so wats d point in cribbin abt a few minor adjustments wen u gettin ‘love’ in return which s 1 of d best feelin possibly existin on earth…..

People say love s painful…I say it s thrillin…..people say love shouldnt happen…. I say it s d most important of all happenins….people say u lose urself in love…I say we discover ourselves in it….people say love s madness….I say it s faith…. people say love s useless…. I say it s EVERYTHIN……yeah…..it s everythin 1 needs 2 ve in life….watever 1 does in life, isn’t it 4 his love 4 sum or d other thin in life…. B it 4 his love 4 life….b it 4 his love 4 his loved ones…b it 4 d love 4 his passion….or b it his love 4 his responsibilities….at d end it s 4 his love 4 sumthin….n tat s how love makes 1 quietly carry on wid his life wid passion n hope…..
Every single thin happenin on earth revoles around love….no doubt at tymes fytes 4 love ends up in unwanted situations n world turns in2 a place wher hatred co-exists, yet if love s tried 2 conquer wid love rather than wid hatred these unwanted situations ll never arise…..n again love ll show it s overpowerin influence…all we need 2 do s jus respect n love “LOVE”……

D realization tat I don’t really need 2 feel guilty n confused abt bein deeply n passionately in love makes me feel really strong….wat if it makes me live in a fairyland, yet tat way I can keep my positivity abt life alive….d best part of all dis s wen d positivity sustains everythin falls on place n it leaves me happy n thrilled…n m always left wid no point 2 complain abt lyfe which results in turnin my mind contented….wat else can I possibly long 4 wen m in a state of pure happiness….n it leaves my faith on love grow stronger n stronger….love s indeed great…..n bein in love s INDEED d greatest of joy in lyfe…..n wen I say dis I no more wanna even try takin love outta my lyfe….cuz LOVE s wat I live 4……love s wat everybody lives 4…….

FRENSHIP ROCKS.....N...FRENZ R D MOST PRICED POSSESSIONS.....

D other day was d 1st Sunday of August…n hence celebrated s Friendship’s Day….lotta criticism…lotta anticipation….n also lotta enthusiasm…tat accompany d celebration….a group says it s jus a commercialized perception while others claim it 2 b a day stored only n only 4 frenz…. watever may it b we can come 2 a conclusion tat it s harmless….n y not…wat s d harm in celebratin a day dedicatin only 2 frenship????after all isn’t it 1 of d purest form of relationships…not shadowed by thousand other corrupted feelins n emotions….

History speaks about givin life in frenship….abt sacrificing everythin in frenship….n it happens….in true meanin….frenship doesn’t demand it…but people do everythin possible in frenship….cuz it s d most beautiful n selfless relation any1 can possess….people say ‘Love makes d world go round’…n I say ‘Frenship makes d world go alive’….

It’s been quite long tat I was lookin 4 an opportunity 2 thank my frenz…n jus took dis chance 2 pen down d feelins lyin at d bottom of heart…people say u ve 2 b lucky if u ve a true fren….n undoubtedly m 1 among d luckiest ones….cuz I’ve a bunch of frenz whom I can rely upon….whom I can shout at d top of my voice n d very next moment can demand 2 get me a cold drink….whom I can call up at d oddest hour 2 listen 2 my crappy talks….whom I can demand 2 take me to d highway CCD at 3O’ clock in d morning….n most importantly on whom I can trust even my eyes closed….m I really not 1 of d most luckiest of d crowd????

There ve been so many incidents n accidents in my life wherin m left all alone in d crowd by situations….n those tymes all I could ve was d bunch of my frenz…who could never let me b alone….b it a personal problem or a professional crisis all I had 2 do was jus 2 text any1 of d gang…n all ll jus b next 2 me…wen I needed sumbody 2 listen 2 my unending crappy cribbins they were there…wen I needed 2 laugh my heart out they were there….wen I needed sumbody 2 make me console wen my continuosly flowin emotions had no bound they were thre….wen I needed sumbody 2 solve my probles they were there…..n tat 2 widout makin d tiniest complaint….I really don no wat they r made of….but all they did all through was jus to pamper me…..n 2 make me feel like a princess….

I still remember d gang of my frenz who cried wid me wen I had lost control on my emotions…who stood by me wen my insane mind planned all d psychic plans….who hid any possible weapon wid wat I could hurt myself….I still remember my frenz who got me Dominos’ 2 make up 4 a fight 4 which I was d culprit….I still remember my frenz who cooked food 4 me, got me cakes every hour jus 2 kill my mad appetite….supplied cold drinks n chips while I had fun watchin all kinda horror movies…..wat not I had made ‘em do n they carried all my idiotic demands widout makin d slightest hiss…

I rem every single of their support wen I was in need of it...rem those nytes wen i used 2 crib abt my idiotic boyfren n they had listened 2 thos widout even ever knowin who tat guy s...rem those moments wen I shouted on d same guy accusin him of my sadness n despite knowin tat m d culprit they still were on my side....they consoled me wid d utmost patience....took my idiotic cribbins....n made me feel m d best....n also supported me 2 plan 2 execute d one who caused my pain....heights of support....n i know it was all cuz they wanted me 2 smile n they were tryin 2 do it in any damn way possible....

In dis unknown city wen I had no1 2 even talk 2, more than me my frenz chose 2 b bothered….more than me they were bothered how m gonna stay safe….n get goin wid d new life….n 2day wen m comfortably set I know it’s all ‘em who made it happen….all my life I ll cherish every single moment wid u guys….d moments wen I made ‘em carry my luggage while me walkin royally….made ‘em get in2 ladies compartment 2 place my staffs… every single moment of those wen they gave me lessons on Central, Western n Harbor lines of Mumbai railways…scared me wid d stories of Mumbai rain….gave GYAN on bus service….and also buyin me Rail Guide…. I ll cherish all d moments wen we got drenched royally on sea face….tried clickin pics like old movie stars….screamed n pulled legs like bunch of zombies…isn’t every single of these moments special…..yup…they r…n I love u guys 4 every bit of it…

I don no how 2 thank my frenz…words r less everytyme wen emotions take d front seat…same s my situation now….cant end explainin u guys….jus wanna say tat I LOVE U GUYS…4 each n every sweet moment we’ve shared…I might not b callin u up everyday…might not b textin u every half n hour…but I want u 2 no 1 thin….u guys r pages of my life book….i love u like never b4….i miss u like never b4…jus wish we stay dis way 4ever….jus want u 2 no u guys r my priced possessions….widout u life wont b d same…cuz u color my life….me wont b me widout u all…

Frenship rocks….n especially U Guys Rock…..Love U Always….

LOSIN URSELF CAN BE WORTHWHIL AT TYMES...........

It s been quite sumtyme tat I had last sat by d window n was lost jus in2 myself…n 2day wen m doin d same n enjoyin d face of dis rain drenched beautiful city wid a steamin mug of coffee in had I jus realized I had not been in my elements 4 long….in fact I had jus completely 4gotten 2 live my life…..n d outcome was I had really started overlookin d beauty of d world around me…..n it was jus my mental shell tat I had thought 2 b my world….n s usual dis situation played its own game on me…..blockin my heart n mind 2 sum illusionary world…..instead of facin d beautifu reaity I had been livin in sum imaginary pain n heartache….how foolish of me…..n all I wanna do now s 2 ask myself a simple question….was I actin stupid or was I letting myself get victimized by d stupidity around me….n does it make me regret?????

N wen I look 4 an ans I know I was actin stupid 2 others’ eye….n I was letting myself befooled by d situation….but about regrettin….. I certainly don……in my own terms n conditions I had chosen 2 be a victim of d situation n m glad I did….or else I had no way 2 experience an amazingly new n fresh journey tat m on board now…..n tat makes me realize at tymes it s good 2 lose elements n act jus mad n nuts…cuz dis s 1 way how u get a chance 2 enjoy thins in a different perspective…..yeah…at tymes u should let thins take its course….or rather let ‘em flow……tat might b a lil risky at tymes but d essence lies in tat….riskin d obvious makes it a thrillin experience…..n if it has a positive outcome it s amazin n if it s a negative 1, u ll end up knowin a new facet of life…which s all d more exhilaratin….so no loss in any case….

They say wen u play a game play it till d end….never back up n rest ll b jus decided….same way wen u take a decision however foolish it might look or sound 2 others don let ur mind drift away 4m it….cuz at tat point of tyme it looked d best tat u could decide….so wher s d chance 2 regret….in fact if it were not taken it might make u feel guilty all through….so stay guiltfree n answerable 2 ur own conscience….n d rest ll flow accordingly…there s so many chances tat u might end up lovin n respevtin urself all d way more jus cuz of few of those innocent foolish decisions….n d truth s d world s not so bad n tough tat even if some of ur decisions go wron it ll ve no place 4 ur survival….it ll ve a unique room4 u 2 even if end up in a big blunder….so y not takin risk n lose urself 2 wat ur heart says…..

As I’m lookin out through my window sippin my coffee I decide it s not tat bad I’ve done by losin my element or losin d chance 4 a few months 2 enjoy d beauty of my life or by livin in an imaginary pain…..at least I experienced sumthin diff 4m d predictable n obvious monotonous life…..n d best part it has made me stronger than ever n ve made me realize how thrillin d journey of life can b jus if u make a lil change in ur regular plan…………..

Life ll take its course…..always… no matter if u enjoy it or jus waste it by letting urself stuck…..n wen u look back n realize u shouldn’t ve who nos how much life u ll b left wid….so no matter wat lets jus c d beauty of dis amazing life n makes it all d more exorbitant by jus seein it 4m al d way possible…..or should I by messin it up wildly…..perhaps tat s 2 wild 2 digest…so let d wildness n mess up factor b exclusively 4 me….

LIFE S A GAME...JUS PLAY UR BEST...

D other day was d last Saturday of d month…hence started early 4m office…had a plan 2 catch up wid sum good food n a chilled coffee…n wid tat in mind jus entred in a mall…by d tyme I came out wid my Tropical Iceberg n a huge burger in hand d ground floor of d mall was packed up wid a hug crowd…music was played on n I could make out ther was sumthin interestin goin on…cuz everybody seemed very happy bein a part of d crowd…realizin tat I had nothing much 2 do back at home n I had quite bit of leisure tyme in hand I decided2 join in d fun…so I jus climed up d escalators n got myself fixed in a place on d 1st floor 4m wher I could c d whole episode in a proper way…tats wen I realized ther was a dance competition goin on n few groups wer standin in small groups in various corners of d mall…in different attires n I could easily make out it was a hip hop dance competition…all d guys n gals were teenagers n their excitement level was at d top…they looked bit tensed, bit worried n bit scared…but tat couldn’t make their excitement level come down…

Wat amused me d most s d enthusiasm tat those small kids had in ‘em…there was no doubt tat only 1 group s gonna b awarded d winners’ crown n they knew it quite 2 well…but tat was d last thin in their mind at tat tyme…their spirits were high n all they were doin s concentratin on givin their best performance on d stage…tat made me realize 1 thin sumbody said sumwher…’’if fate means u 2 lose give it a good fight anyway’’…n yup tat s 1 biggest truth tat we keep 4gettin a lot of tymes…
Winnin n losin s always a part of d game…doesn’t matter whether tat s a game of life…game on a ground or agameon d stage…but does it really stop d real players 4m givin d best they can…surely not…a real player s jus unaware of d consequences of d game…he jus plays his best game…n tats how he enjoys d game d best way possible…n finally he wins…y…cuz he gave his best shot…isn’t it a circle…u play best n u b d best…doesn’t matter whether u tried 2 prove tat u r best or not…u get proved cuz u tried givin d best of u…how amazing…

D game of life s also d same…y to bother wat it has in store 4 u…jus live it d best way possibleor rather play in d best way u no…n finally u DO get in there wher u always wanted 2 b…no doubt it s not s easy s spoken…but 1 who has lived lyfe tat way can understand how uncomplicated it s 2 let life play its own game while u play ur best shot…n tat lets u enjoy every moment of lyfe in d most mesmerizing way…lyfe itself brins so much thrill n compliments tat u don ve 2 think about havin sum more again…jus enjoyin each n every moment of it widout bein a critic makes everythin so enjoyable…if there s a hard moment jus let it pass by…n it does passes by…cuz finally any gam has it s end…n if there s a bad game it also does get over…I fact bad games take lesser tyme 2 get over…isn’t it…so all we need 2 do s jus ve a bit of patience n let d game take its course…meanwhile we let ourselves in2 it wid all our enthusiasm n energy…of course we ll win at d end…

My coffee was getin over n also d competition…I didn’t wait 4 d result 2 b announced…cuz there was no need 4 me 2 no who d winner was…d way everybody gave his or her best shot was all tat I heartened…I really wished if I could approach every single of ‘em n say a hearty thanks 2 ‘em 4 d amazing act they performed…n above of all 4 remindin me wid 1 of d biggest truth tat whatever game u play JUS GIVE UR BEST SHOT…n also 4 reassurin me about 1 more truth of life…tat WEN U PLAY D BEST U WIN …

A SIMPLE WISH................

The other day experienced a very unique morning after ages….The whole morning it was raining, starting since the dawn….The beautiful drops of rain had created a dramatic environment… And, it made me feel guilty for wasting time in bed and so I ended up sitting by the window very early in the morning….And continued that way till I had no other option left than leaving the view of the beautiful sparkling dewdrops to get going for my work……And although I was engrossed in being dressed up,all the while my mind was drifting back again and again to the amusing sight of the rain….So pure….so true….and so touching…..And I was surprised to recall how happy I was when I was enjoying the rain….

That's when I realize once again that the true and amazing things in life come without a price…And they are not materialistic…..God has created the most mesmerizing things long before we could even think of…..And everything that He has created are matters of purity and are serine….The best part of it is everyone can enjoy the beauty of it..You don't need to be rich to enjoy the rain….You don't have to have the best of anything materialistic to enjoy the beauty of a morning….You don't have to be anyone other than yourself to absorb the beauty of the flowers in the garden….The colors of the rainbow….And the vastness of the mountains…You can enjoy those without thinking of your background…your wealth…your caste….your religion….And that's how God has spread equality among all……

Wish that was same in every case….Wish the world around us were a place where all could feel the goodness of life equally…But that's far beyond imagination…Might be just a wild imagination rather…The endless slams just next to castle-look-alike buildings keep reminding that all the while….The handless beggar standing at the window of a BMW paints the bright color of sheer inequality only….We all know it….We all realize it…And might be we are even desperate to change the whole picture someday…But at the end, we resort in nowhere…Cuz we don't know how to do it…Where to begin it…And that leaves us all helpless but to stick to our good old monotony of letting things happen….

Wish things never started this way…Wish things were as plain and simple as the goodness of nature…Wish everyone was blessed with a chance to enjoy life and its beauty the way he can enjoy the beauty of the rain…The beauty of the foggy mountain around the city….And the sunset in the sea….Wish things in life were so simple…REALLY WISH….

KEEPIN D FAITH ALIVE.........

The last few days have been a wonderful experience for me….What started as a reckless decision to land up in an unknown city without a strong foothold and with a lot of uncertainty has started turning out to be one of the best decisions in my life….And this has made me regain my faith in one truth….That when you have a strong focus and truth in heart with a positive mindset nothing can go wrong for you…In fact things that go wrong owing to situations start falling back on track…That's the beauty of life…...At one moment you feel lost…but the next it only gives you strengths to face it on………And one fine morning you find things falling back on track….exactly as you wished for…No doubt you need to retain your faith on the goodness of life and also should know yourself….Know that there is always a strength lying inside you that can make impossible possible……

Life…..strange how it guides you…It teaches us to be different everyday…Rather to adjust to situations without losing faith……Teaches us to act according to different situations and teaches us to be strong with every passing bolt in the journey…….And end of it we discover ourselves as different persons….With a stronger and much polished attitude towards it………And then we rediscover ourselves…And know that whatever comes on our way we have the strength to face it on….To fight it back…..And to win over…..Great how it is…..

Yet….often we fail to realize ourselves…Fail to see that things are never beyond our hands…Just that we not stretching ourselves enough to reach them….Just that we're not trying to see what is that CLICK factor that can be used to handle the situation faced…Just that we get confused with our SHOULD and SHOULDN’Ts…CAN and CANNOTs….And finally we behead our courage and strengths…So unfair….What we hardly realize is that there is no power to outsmart one’s will…..That is what WILLPOWER all about…


Maybe m generalizing things from my personal experience and putting a simpler conclusion to what some other might say as a complicated truth of life…But isn’t it right that the more we make things complicated the more difficult it turns out to be….And accordingly the more out of hands they slip away….So why don't we just simplify things and put a simpler conclusion…That life is nothing but believing in one’s own dreams….Retaining the faith all along….And facing problems with just no different from that of a normal happening….And most importantly with keeping our ears open to the truest adviser around….OUR HEART………

HAPPYNESSS............IT S MADE ONLY OF LOVE..........

d other day probably 4 s 1st tyme i was happy.......probably 4 d 1st tyme in dis new city i was happy.......in real sense.....n tat made me rebelieve 1 thin.....doesnt matter however hard u try u can b happy in real sense only wen ur heart s content.....u can view happyness 4m quite few angles....but ultimately d real happyness s not brought by money or comfort....or 4 tat matter any other materialistic staffs........a small smile 4m ur loved ones s all wat u need 2 b happy......a smile tat can make u feel ur belongingness 2 him......n tats love.....d strangest feelin god ever created.......

cant define how...but love has d most overpowerin strenght 2 make u feel happy.....u ve fear in mind of anythin...think about d smile on ur loved ones's lips....d fear disappears in d next moment....u r lost in d crowd...think about d arms of ur loved ones's around u.....u get ur way outta d crowd......u r scared of facin life....think about how beautiful ur life would b wid ur loved ones's...u get all d strengths 2 walk on d cuttin edge of lyfe......tats d power of love....n anyone ever fallin in love can undoubtedly say dis wid hands on their heart......


really.....there might b thousand moments in love which u don want....never expect n can leave u really messed up....but if u really can act fair to any problem in life u ll understand...tat love s d only thin tat can make anyone happy....it makes u so strong tat no other feelin in life can leave u messed up.....shattered.....n it gives u food 4 ur thought....2 make em matured.....n cant define y...but it always happen tat a person who can love can win anythin in life....n y not....he gets d biggest unreasoned support in love.....wat else u need other than 2 keep urself go on in d most sophisticated way.......

dis blog s 2 all who r in love....can love....n do love....doesnt matter wat.....it can be their parent tat they love....might b siblings....might b poetries....mght b paintings.....might b music.....it might b anythin tat one loves....but LOVE SHOULD ALWAYS B THERE......if u wanna b happy.....cuz HAPPYNESS S MADE OF ONLY N ONLY LOVE...........

JUS MISSIN IT ALL.............

y does it always happen dis way...tat wen u away 4m ur fav ones only
den do u realize how precious they were......doesnt matter it s jus
somebody...or somethin......

wen it s loneliness we miss d crowd....wen
it s summer we miss d winter.....wen it s sunny we miss d rain......n
wen it s all over we miss everythin.....life s like tat.....miss thins
wen they no more wid us......

jus dis mornin realized how much m missin
my old days.....cant help....gettin up 2 face few unknown faces....2
face dis deadly dry weather.....2 face every possible unexpected n
undesired experience......n tats wat makin me feel how much m missin my
lovely home back.......my small sweet home tat i made back in tat green
city....n yeah.....everythin abt tat sweet place s makin me miss it
even more.....d chillin breeze in d evenins.....d unexpected rain in d
evenins....d unlimited tea n coffees in d roadside huts......d long n
chatty long drives late at nites....d bunch of lovin frenz who used 2
run at middle of d nite jus 2 wipe my tears which were 4 someone they
didnt even know........

life s so strange....didnt realize tat time wat
m leavin back in there...didnt realize how much m gonna starve 4 those
moments....n now m dyin 4 every bit of it.....is it always necessary
tat we lose somethin n den only we realize how precious they
were....cant it happen dis way tat nobody ever has 2 lose
anythin.....cant it be tat simple......life s really strange.....one
moment ve everythin.....n d next jus nothin.....ll dis mystery of iife
ever gonna unwind....guess never....

DESPERATE ATTEMPTS.........

d other nite sleep was arrogant 2 come 2 me........ended up explorin d bed all nite..........makin desperate attempts 2 get some sleep.......it didnt come n tat made be rebelieve somethin......tat wen u desperately need n want somethin it runs away 4m u.....recalled one of my fren sayin...."Donot try holdin d sand in ur fist too tight...it jus slips away tat way"..........how very true.......


these days m losin my mind i believe....ve ended up in a place where facin nothin rather den some strange experiences....never felt so lost n desperate ever....hot dusty days......unexpected twists n turns......no security in any way.....don no how do i get myself back n can b strong 2 survive on.........it s difficult.............

makin attempts 2 feel strong....2 feel better n....2 feel tat m not alone......but tat hardly changes anythin....tat hardly changes my sleepless nights....tat hardly gets me peace ofmind.....n tat hardly makes me feel better anyway......so everytime i make an attempt it ends up in great desperation.....in vain......n tat s leavin me naive......


still waitin 4 d sun 2 give me some shine...............still waitin 4 d days 2 brin me d much needed break...........hope dis wait doesnt turn out 2 b a unendin one.........................

POUR D HEART OUT.......LIFE S SHORT....LETS LOVE......

switch on d tv n everywher it s been flashin continuously since it happened in tat cruel mornin.....wid every bit of flash don no wat other thins come 2 mind....but 4 sure one faith goes stronger n stronger.....life s so unpredicatble n uncertain.....2day we r here chattin....chillin....laughin...n who nos d next moment might b d last in our life.....really.....does life ve any worth n value if we really think on....cant find a perfect ans 2 tat....jus b4 sittin in d aircraft did anybody of d late crowd think tat they gonna start a never returnin journey...wid their death not only did they die....a lotta other dreams....hopes....plannins.....n a lotta expectactions did die 2....of someone's parents'....siblings'....spouses'....kids'....loved ones'......how cruel life s....one moment it makes u lovin it 2 d core....n next moment it makes u struggle 4 makin d next....d next moment it jus brins a full stop 2 everythin....
still we fight.....still we compete.....still we always wanna make it big....n in tat course we make enemies....we make people hate us....we make ourself cruel.....and at d end we don even get 2 take anythin wid us....we jus vanish 4m here....how strange.....d more we think d more complicated it gets....probably tats one reason y we always overlook things in life n let it go rather den bein bothered.....one good way 2 adapt....
wish everybody understood d momentary feature of life...wish everybody could jus 4get all d bad n unwanted moments of life n started everythin fresh...wish love could get higher weightage than hatred....wish everybody could understand tat we might not live 2morrow....so y not embrace d goodness of 2day....y cant we jus 4get all d pain we caused 2 one another n jus run n take one another in arm.....n jus say "m still ther 4 u".....
yeah...we can do tat....we cant change d past....neither we no about 2morrow....but we surely can make 2day count by lovin and bein generous 2 one another.....at least lets learn 1 small truth 4m d tragedy tat happened recently....tat LIFE S TOO SHORT......n tat there s hardly any space 4 hatred...

WAITIN 4 D RAIN..............

Jus d previous nite my frenz called 2 say tat it s been rainin there every evenin………..every1 s amazed 2 feel d soft rain on ‘em….n y not….after a dusty n hot summer rainfall s wat all die 2 ve…..such a pleasant feel 2 ve d raindrops pourin on d face…..n getting wet on it is jus beyond words…..n if frenz r there 2 give u company in sharing d experience wat more can u ask 4………………………..

Even m waitin 4 d rain drops 2 pour here 2……it s hot dusty n sweaty in here……makin d day a real painful experience…..but den it ll change in no tyme m sure…..d beautiful rain ll pour down here 2…..dampnin my hair……dampnin my clothes…..wen raindrops ll pour on my face I ll jus close my eyes…..n ll feel immense joy n peace……cold breeze ll add flavor 2 it…..wen d sky turns black every afternoon I ll jus run 2 my terrace n ll stand there waitin 4 d raindrops 2 pour on……soft drizzles at 1^st….n den d rain ll take its blowin course…………tat ll make me wet n ll make me d happiest person on earth……..i no everythin around ll look so pretty……n I ll not b able 2 take my eyes off…..d wetty trees around….d flowers wid raindrops on it…..d dusky colors around…..d blowin wind across…..n still pourin rain ……wat can be more charmin than such an exotic experience…………….i ll jus keep standin there till tyme permits me……no worries….no sorrow…..no pain….no thoughts at all……..

True….nature s d place which s so true…so secure….so beautiful……so carefree….n so peaceful…wish human bein stayed natural rather than makin d earth so plastic n concrete……at least d worries, pains,cruelty,sorrows n all tat unwanted n shatterin elements of lyfe wouldn’t ve existed here…….…

TYME S JUS PASSING BY................

don no wen d wait s gonna end...........it seems so long n unendin.................thins happenin at its pace n m jus standin in middle of d fast runnin crowd of experiences........................tyme s jus passin on n on............sumday i say 2 myself...."Lets wind it up"............n d next moment hopes come back 2 me n i stand up again........2 face a new wait..............................don no till wen it goes on.........................unendin it really s...................hope sumday i can find out my destiny.........

AN EVENIN IN AN UNKNOWN PLACE.........

mumbai.....................people say CITY OF DREAMS...................is it really......yet 2 experience...................except for shoppin and shoppin n a few official trips never ever thought ll really start up my life here...............

but den thins change........at tymes u run after thins which u think URS n ONLY URS.............m doin d same.....my heart says dis s d city tat can give me my everythin............n i no tats d truth.......n so here i m........widout givin a 2nd thought m here....chasin my own possessions.....which i lost cuz of my silly mistakes.....but den it s k......who doesnt commit mistkes.......i did 2......n 4m d moment i realized m tryin on n on......2 rectify those.....................n i no 1 day ll cum...........wen i ll get back my everythin..................EVERYTHIN.................cuz those r MINE n they can never b others.................

it s a bit hot here...................don ve an ac in my room............miss d comfort tat i hadback in blore....miss my frenz.....miss d CCD n MCDs jus next 2 my house there......but den it s k......here i no there r lot other things tat i die for....tat i TRULY CARE FOR.......n TRULY WANT.......so it s fine........wat if nobody understands me anymore....wat if everybody around me s angry wid me cuz they think i don care...........but i do......I TRULY DO......i LOVE U GUYs.........................i no m listenin none but only 2 my heart....................but den tats d pace in which i store U GUYSTOO na....................................

love n love.........alaways.........

csk....go guys..............

awesome tat CSK stormed into finals.........................love these guys.............