Well, it's drizzling since morning...One of the last few rains of the season....The silvery droplets with the pale rays of the moon have created some kind of magic, and with my music on my ears I'm completely transfered into a different world altogether...Inside my cozy blanket, I'm in my 'The Happiest' state...And, yes, as usual I'm thinking about 'You'...The way I always do, when I'm highly happy or highly sad...I'm thinking about all those happy moments we shared which are still something that I treasure...The moments which have major share in crafting the 'Me' of today...And those moments, which, if I decide to forget, I'll really be at a loss of few very beautiful and wonderful moments of my life...
Yes, I'm thinking about those small happinesses I shared with you...Those walks on the deserted roads, those repeating cups of coffee in the coffee shops, those late night talks till the wee hours of the morning...Yes, I remember all of it, and guess what, those make me smile 'cuz, those silly things were something that made me happy in those days, and still do...Those insane things made me see the true colours of life...Made me fall in love with the small things in life...Made me take life in an easier way than I always used to...And, today that is what I love life for...For the small happinesses it offers, for the little drops of joy it brings, for the million moments of reasonless ecstacy...
Yes, I'm also thinking about those moments when we behaved crazzy...Those maddening late night fights, only to make up early in the morning...Those all night long phone calls post an evening fight, only to just hold the phone against ears, without uttering a word at all during the whole time...Those one word make ups, post a one week break up...Yes, I remember all of it...And guess what, those too, make me smile 'cuz, those crazzy things were something that made me happy those days, and still do...Those mad things were something that made me realize what it's to be in love...Made me realize the fun of acting and being crazzy...Made me see the value of attachment...And today, I'm much better in handling any of its kind than those times, today, I would not take a maddening step to hurt anybody like before...And today, I would definitely not make anybody suffer cuz of me...
Yes, I'm also thinking about you not being in my life anymore...Well, unlike the other things, this one doesn't make me very happy, nor does make me smile with my heart out...But, it doesn't make me sad either, cuz I realize, somewhere you must be having the kind of life you need, and you want...And that does make me smile...As does the thought of those sweet moments of your presence in my life...Those soft hugs before each of my college exams, those soft kisses on my eyes before parting away each day, and those whispering words in my ears every evening...I often miss each of those...Well, I'm fine without those, just that with those I would have been better...
Well, by now, I'm sure of one thing, that I'm missing you...But I'm happy to miss you...Many a times it's better to realize and understand things, when it's all over...That makes it more glorious and worthy...And I'm happy that you are one of such feelings in my life...'Cuz, as I know myself, it takes a lot of effort from myself to really value something as it deserves, and I'm sure with me, you had felt the same too...And, I'm happy that today I value you more than I always did, one 'cuz you do deserve it (at least from me, for all you did for me)...and second you made me a better me, both with your presence, and of course with your absence...
Well, I guess, I'm sleepy...My eyelids are heavy, and any moment I'll fall asleep...So, here I stop, and get back to my world of music and dream...But, before that, one last thing, only for you...Thank you...For everything you did, for eveyrthing you meant, for everything, good and bad...Noone around me would ever know, and understand, why, what, and how...But you did make me a better me...You really did...
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